My Mom's Personal Diary
My Mom's Personal Diary

Author: writerbyheart01

Published: 08/10/24

In a world where society claims to forgive, the reality often paints a different picture. We are told to rise like a phoenix from the ashes of our past, to embrace each bad chapter as a lesson. Yet, how often are people truly allowed to leave their past behind? Mistakes cling like roots to a treeā€”an inseparable part of who we are, shaping how we are judged and remembered. This thought-provoking book delves into the harsh truth: can anyone truly escape their past, or will society always hold it against them? Through powerful storytelling, it explores the journey of self-redemption and the constant battle for acceptance. Will the characters rise above the judgment, or will their past define them forever?

Chapters


Shifa's POV

After I listened from what Musa uncle said that day; a smile was not leaving my lips. I was feeling the best feeling of my life till then. I never got Papa's love but then I was just a step away from Faraz's love...

I never expected that..... I couldn't be more happy than that time. I smiled while Watching Faraz's DP. He was still showing the same. That was been twenty days when Faraz went to Mumbai, and I was waiting for him to come back so that his mother come to ask for my proposal. But I was detecting a restlessness in mummy's behaviour, she was looking tensed since the day Musa uncle informed them about Nida aunty's decision. Once I tried to ask the reason from her but she just smiled and said that there wasn't anything. She was supposing that I didn't know about all these things but in actually she didn't know that I know everything and moreover my heart was asking for Faraz all the day and night.

"Papa can I go to Afifa's home?" I asked on dinner table and he shook his head without wasting a single second and I nodded with down face. I knew there won't be any benefit to further requests so I choose to kill my another small wish.

"Have to packed your stuff?" papa asked to Bilal, next day he was going to Shimla with school tour.

"Yes papa... I'm excited to go there.." He said so happily.

"Shifa aapi give me your mobile, I'll click photos there" my heart skipped a beat after listening that. My mobile was the only source which made me connect with Faraz and at that point I couldn't afford to gave my to anyone.

"No I'm not giving you my mobile, you click pictures with your friend's mobile..." I said clearly and he made a innocent face.

"Mummaaaaa.... Its not fear Shifa aapi got her mobile on 18th birthday but now I'm going to be 18 soon but I haven't get one yet"

"Don't compare yourself with me billu, you are going to Shimla for whole ten days but I am not going to even Affi's home for few hours. If you have to compare yourself with me than make everything equal" I said in slow voice and lift the last bite in hurry before going back to my room.

"Suniye... Jaane dijiye na bachchi ko, kahi bhi nahi jati..." I listened mummy's voice before entering in the room and then I listened a thud maybe papa throw some utensil to show his anger.

(let her go please, she don't go anywhere)

"Please Faraz come soon... I'm waiting for you... I am feeling suffocated in this home... I want to live my life, I don't just wanna live by taking breath and eating food... I also wanna roam around, I also wanna laugh freely, I want someone who supports me in every way, who give me confidence, who don't treat me like a culprit without any fault" I mumbled while looking at his still unchanged DP and a small smile made its way to my lips and lone tear appeared in my eye.

Many time Faraz uploaded motivational quotes at the time of my exam or when I was super depressed after his engagement. I was fade up of my caged life, I wanted my happiness and Faraz was only hope for me.

"Shaffo" Bhai entered in the room and I suddenly turned off the mobile screen.

"Yeah bhai?"

"Do you wanna go to Shimla?" He asked and I shook my head down heartedly

"Then Kashmir?" I again shook my head

"Ooty?"

"Goa?"

"Kullu?"

"Kerala?"

"Rajasthan?"

"Punjab"

Bhai keep asking me about different states of India and I keep shaking my head in reply, mumma and Bilal also come to my room and sat beside me

"Don't you wanna go anywhere?" mumma asked and I nodded

"Where?" Hamdan bhai asked politely sitting in front of me after pulling my cheek on which I glared him and huffed. But decided to give answer

"I wanna go to a place where I can do whatever I want" I state slowly and mummy and bhai both smiled.

"Then you can go to a place where you can do anything... There won't be any problem. That place is specially designed for your type of people who do whatever they want to do" Bilal said grin but a mischievous one.

"What place?" I asked with a smile

"Mental Asylum" He affirmed and I huffed but I smiled too on his naughty behaviour.

"Get lost from my room" I said while putting my hand on his cheek indicating him that he would get a slap from my non-fragile hand

"Give me your mobile, I promise I'll bring something for you from Shimla.. Please please please please..." He literally begged and I stubbornly shook my head.

"Nope"

"Heartless" He muttered while glaring.

"Whatever" I also muttered after rolling my eyes

"I hate you" He said as if he was giving me threatening and I smiled.

"My pleasure" placing my right hand on my heart I said while bowing my head a bit and he huffed.

"I'll never talk to you" He said and I showed my toothie grin

After sometime everyone left me in the room and I offered Namaz. After that I open file manager and open the hidden files in that...

Hidden files... Which was containing Faraz's pics.

I always save his DPs. Either any message or his pics. Opening a pic my lips converted into a smile. Faraz was sitting on a chair and Ifra Aapi was standing behind him, her chin was placed on Faraz's head and she was pressing his neck with her both hands, and Faraz was laughing as his sister was doing.

"Doctor Sahab, now come back soon from Mumbai" I mumbled while opening another hidden pic and again a smile made its way to my lips. My days and night were passing just like that...

A muscular member of my frame which is about the size of a fist, located just behind and slightly left of the breastbone.... Was jumping very fast in those days. I scolded it many times and try to made it understand that its work is to pump the blood all around the body so it should focus on its original job.... But that stubborn organ ignored my all scoldings and keeps watching the dreams and making its own la-la land all the time...

My dear little heart was forgetting everything but Faraz...

After some days Faraz started changing his DPs and his every DP was giving a single message in different words. 'The wait is over'

That's been almost fifty days but He didn't come back from Mumbai and in those fifty days maybe I mumbled a single sentence fifty thousand times 'Please come back soon Faraz'

After some days Faraz changed his DP and I smiled like mads.

"I only have one heart Faraz how many times will you win it?" I asked to him in my thoughts and felt myself on ninth cloud, a shy smile was not leaving my lips


"I only have one heart Faraz how many times will you win it?" I asked to him in my thoughts and felt myself on ninth cloud, a shy smile was not leaving my lips. I wanted to gave him reply so changed my DP. He called me 'precious' it's a very big thing for me.

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Faraz's POV

When we reached to Mumbai, I send Ammi and abbu ji to home from airport with our luggage and I went to hospital along with Musa Mama. Asking about Safiya Khala from reception we stepped towards the ward and I found Kashif standing outside a room and anyone could detect his terrified condition. It wasn't easy for him to handle all those things alone.

"Bhai" he hugged me suddenly When he saw me, his hands were as cold as as ice which was enough to show his state.

"Its okay Kashif... She will be fine soon" I patted his back but he was behaving like a baby.

"Bhai I don't know what happened to her, when I left her in morning she had a little temperature but when I come back home she was laying unconscious in the kitchen" he informed me and I again patted his back and assured him that, Safiya khala would be fine soon. Then got busy in talking to other doctors and Musa mama was talking to Kashif.

After almost twenty days Safiya khala was discharged from hospital after her kidney transplant surgery but neither we left her in that condition not she was able to come to Delhi with us. So we decided to stay with her for some more time till she became fine. After some one and a half month she was very much better and I was happy for her.

"Khala you made us frightened" I complained and she smiled while patting my cheek.

"Darne ki zarurat nhi hai, mujhe abhi kuch nhi hoga, abhi to tumhari shadi attend karni hai..." I smiled on khala's words and she caressed my head.

(no need to frightened, nothing going to be happen to me, I still have to attend your wedding)

"Yes khala and I need all your blessings" I said and she again smiled weakly.

"May Allah bless you and your family a happy life, may you live happily with Aamna" my heart skipped a beat on her dua (blessings) which she was giving me and Aamna in her weak and tormented voice.

"Not Aamna but Shifa" I corrected her in small voice and she was shocked when I explained everything. She was feeling sad for Aamna.

Our engagement wasn't break yet because the day when everything was decided, the same day we come to Mumbai and Abbu ji was waiting for going back to Delhi to do that work. Khala told Ammi that she should talk to Aamna's parents as soon as possible because it wouldn't be good to make this engagement very long, that was already eight or nine months of that engagement. And Ammi also said that when we would go back to Delhi she will go to Shifa's home for our proposal and Abbu ji would go to Aamna's home to tell them about our decision.

I was desperate to go back to Delhi. But I was keep watching Shifa's DP...

But this time her DPs were giving me some kind of relief, maybe Musa Mama told her family about our decision and she was happy due to that.

After a long wait which was two months Safiya khala become normal, who requested her to come to Delhi with us but she said that you would be comfortable there would Kashif and also we shouldn't take Kashif with us due to his studies in the end it was decided that the both would live in Mumbai as they were living things few years.

And finally the wait was over we came back home after whole two months 5 days and 6 hours..

After a few days Ammi called me in her room when I entered in the home, I was so much tired but I obeyed as usual.

"Faraz tomorrow I'm going to Shifa's home with Ifra and your abbu is going to Aamna's home to talk to her father" after listening that words my tiredness flew away and my heart skipped a beat, that happiness was incomparable to any other feeling for me.

"Okay Ammi" I mumbled and got up from there to stepped towards the room, but my mind asked a single question and I put that in front of Abbu ji and Ammi.

"Ammi do you have informed Maryam aunty that you are going there?" I asked meekly.

"No, I haven't told her yet neither I will. We will go without informing." Ammi said and I nodded without any expressions on my face.

"What happened now? Aren't you happy?" Abbu ji asked with furrowed brows

"I'm happy abbu ji" saying that I scoot to my room and I was so much happy that I couldn't show that in front of my parents. Don't know how to tolerate that happiness...

"Miss Shifa be ready tomorrow my mother will be in your place" I mumbled whole heartedly and full of joy. I picked my mobile to call her but stopped by the thought that I should wait for some more time because if her father got to know about that then I'm sure something wrong must be take place...

So I said to my heart to stop making trouble for me and Shifa but I had to inform Shifa about Ammi's visit but how...

Actually that wasn't a difficult question... Of course through my DP.

By the way, I guess we were the only two individual on this earth who were talking through DPs. And we use that type of quotes and images which convey a deep and secret message with the help of common words. No one can get that our DPs were giving any kind of messages to a specific person.

I always create those DPs by myself, so that I can put those words which will help her to understand what I wanna say and don't give a clear message to others that about whom I'm talking.

I'm smart. right?

I know...

Time to give message to Shifa that 'koi aane wala hai' (someone is coming)

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