My Mom's Personal Diary
My Mom's Personal Diary

Author: writerbyheart01

Published: 08/10/24

In a world where society claims to forgive, the reality often paints a different picture. We are told to rise like a phoenix from the ashes of our past, to embrace each bad chapter as a lesson. Yet, how often are people truly allowed to leave their past behind? Mistakes cling like roots to a treeβ€”an inseparable part of who we are, shaping how we are judged and remembered. This thought-provoking book delves into the harsh truth: can anyone truly escape their past, or will society always hold it against them? Through powerful storytelling, it explores the journey of self-redemption and the constant battle for acceptance. Will the characters rise above the judgment, or will their past define them forever?

Chapters

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"Maryam.., Maryam wake up" I listened a voice and opened my eyes he was sitting beside me. I sat down with a jolt and wiped my tears and forehead with the corner of my dupatta but the tears again came out from the eyes.

"What happened?" He asked and I shook my head while closing my eyes to flow down the tears and I cried silently, hugging my knees and I was trying to control my hiccups.

"Who is Aatish?" He asked and I suddenly looked up

"Is he..." He didn't complete and I wiped my tears which again pooled in my eyes.

"Aatish... Aatish is... Shifa's father" I didn't got any other relationship to define Aatish.

"You were mumbling his name." he said and I felt his anger in his words

"I.. I'm sorry, I'll not do this again" I said while trying to stop myself to cry. As if I was watching that dream willingly and mumbling Aatish's name with my happiness.

"I'm sorry" I mumbled again and this time he wiped my tears.

"Chup ho jao" He ordered me and I nodded while sniffing

(stop crying)

"He divorced me, because his parents wanted him to do so, he wanted share in his family business and his father put a condition in front of him to divorce me and take his share. And... He didn't think about our daughter and divorced me. He didn't even took Shifa in his embrace" I said in whispered and he was looking at me with furrowed brows. I don't know why I was telling him everything, maybe I was tired of hiding everything inside me, and I wanted a good listener.

"Don't talk about him after this" his order was strict and I realised that I'm talking to my husband about my ex-husband, maybe I was hurting his male ego, because his wife was talking about any other man.

"I.. I'm sorry" I suddenly apologise and out my leg to went to washroom, because I wanted cry my heart out, but my wrist was catched by him.

"Maryam now you are my wife and I can't see my wife crying for any other man" I turned to saw him and wiped my tears after a nod.

"I'm sorry, I'll not cry again" I mumbled bearing with my hiccups. He was commanding me as if I was a robot

"Will you also divorce me if your mother or sister ask you?" I asked him after a silent of few minutes but stay quite.

"It means you can also do so'' I said and he sighed.

"Bachho jesi bate mat karo, so jao" He said and I nodded.

(Don't behave like kids, take rest now)

I lay down and he was still sitting beside me on the edge of the bed. I was trying to sleep but sleep was not confusing me, when I open my eyes he was watching me without blinking.

He lay down beside me taking me in his embrace and I tried best to moved back but his grip was enough tight.

"Sleep peacefully, you have worked whole day. You must me tired" Caressing my head he said and I gulped, but I slept peacefully.

THIRD PERSON'S POV:

(Flashback)

Anwar was surprised cum shocked he wasn't expected anything like that. He was watching Maryam who was sleeping beside him. Her eyes were covered with dark circles, hair were uncombed and tied in a messy braid, lips were dry and tiredness was clearly visible on her face.

'I know How amma and Rani treat her it's not new their behaviour was same with My Saba too. She also use to cry after hugging me but that situation was different.' with all these thoughts Anwar also slept.

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"Get ready soon I'll drop you to your home" Anwar said to Maryam when she was combing Hamdan's hair

"If I would go then who will cook for lunch!" Maryam said in hushed tone and Anwar realised that she was saying correct.

Meanwhile Shifa started crying and Maryam looked at her, she took her daughter in her arms and started rocking her to hush her.

"Dulhan, what happened, dot you have to make breakfast today?"

"Ji Amma, just five minutes" Maryam yelled and looked at her daughter who was still crying.

"Mummy I don't have pencil...'' Hamdan said and Maryam nodded she passed two pencils from the drawer and went out from the room, carrying Shifa she went to kitchen and got busy in making tea, carrying her with one hand her was doing work with only hand.

Anwar was just noticing her doing all the work without saying anything.

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AFTER FEW HOURS

Maryam was standing on bus stand waiting for Hamdan's bus.

"What happened today, its 2:50pm but the bus haven't arrived. I'm feeling anxious" Man said to other one who was their to receiving his child.

Maryam was also anxious as well as tired because Shifa was crying continuously due to direct sunlight falling on her little face, Maryam covered shifa's face with her palm but she was still crying.

"Razi" She said suddenly when saw her brother crossing on the same road.

"Shifaaaa..." Razi didn't pay attention to Maryam but took Shifa from her arms.

"Mama's doll is crying" mumbling that Razi kissed her cheek

"What are you doing here? And what happened to her why is she crying?" Razi asked angrily, it was difficult for him to saw his neice in that condition

"I'm waiting for Hamdan's bus, and she is crying because the weather is hot." Maryam informed and Razi took Shifa to the other side of the road under the shade of tree.

"Who is this boy?" The lady who was Saba's friend asked to Maryam and she gave answer as ''my younger brother"

After a long wait The bus arrived and Hamdan stepped down from the bus. When Razi witnessed the bus he aslo stepped towards his sister

"Hamdan what happened to you? How it happened?" Maryam asked when witnessed his clothes covered with dust and the scratches on his knees. Even his shirt was teared from one place.

"Mummy we were playing and I slipped, now its paining" Hamdan informed Maryam and showed his elbow which also had a scratch.

"Hamdan why were you playing carelessly?" Maryam asked to him in the time being Razi also arrived there

"Shifaaaa..." Hamdan utter her name happily and looked at Razi

"Mummy who this uncle and why he is holding my Shifa?" Hamdan asked about Razi

"Uncle...!! I'm not uncle.." Razi said with googled eyes and Maryam giggles in her possessiveness of his age, he was over reacting because a five year old boy call him uncle, he was just around 16.

"Its okay don't over react, He is just five" Maryam said while caressing Hamdan's head.

"And by the way according to relationship your are his uncle" Maryam said and Razi glared her.

"You have destroyed your life, you are only nineteen and you have a five year old son." Grinding his teeth He said in whispered and Maryam felt guilty.

"How is everyone in home." she asked meekly

"Fine" Razi replied and Maryam nodded, she opened her arms to took Shifa but Razi refused and said that he will drop her to her home. Both siblings were walking side by side, Razi was witnessing Maryam's condition and feeling sorry for her but at the same time he was angry too

"Come with me" Holding Maryam's arm Razi said rudely and took steps towards right side of the road to a small restaurant.

"Where are you taking me? I have to go home, I'm already late. Its already 3:20" Maryam said but Razi didn't listened and keep walking to the restaurant

"Have a seat" saying that Razi took a seat and Maryam also sat next to him making Hamdan sat beside herself.

Razi ordered ice-cream and soft drinks for three of them.

After witnessing her favourite flavour ice-cream and orange soda Maryam remembered how her father use to fulfill her every demand but then no one was asking her about her choise or her wishes, she got tears in her eyes when lifted the spoon of ice-cream.

"Do you have any problem?" Razi asked in hushed tone and Maryam shrugged, Hamdan was busy in having ice-cream

"I don't know is there any problem or not? My whole life is seems like a problem" She shared her feelings with her brother and he showed his anger.

"This life is your own choice, I am not feeling that much sad for you that I'm feeling for this girl. You were standing in sunlight carrying her. Look at her condition, she is pale in just a month. If you can't take her care then I will take her with me, we all were take her care but don't let her suffer with you" Razi said and Maryam shook her head suddenly.

"No.. I'll not send my daughter away from me. There isn't anyone else for me." She said while crying.

"I'm coming back in a minute, take care of him" Maryam said about Hamdan and went to washroom.

"What is your name?" Razi asked to Hamdan and he informed with a smile.

"Do you want anything else?" Razi asked to him and he shook his head, Razi kissed shifa's cheek who was sleeping in his arms. In some two minutes Maryam came back, she hurriedly finished the ice-cream and softdrink and Razi paid off the bill. They both took just ten minutes

He dropped Maryam and Hamdan near their home in auto rickshaw to save the time of them, which would waste in walking.

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On the other hand.....

"Yeah Amma"

"Anwar, its more an hour but Maryam haven't come back"

"Haven't come back but its 3:35" Anwar said with shocked expression.

"Hamdan comes at 2:10 or maximum 2:15..."

"Say her to call me when she come back" Anwar said in his rude voice

"Anwar I'm telling you, take her in your hold, she is very bold girl"

"Okay Amma, you say her to call me when she come back" Anwar said and at the same time

Busy in her own thoughts Maryam stepped in the home and found her mother-in-law talking to someone on call

"Thankfully She arrived..." She said on call in angry tone while glaring Maryam.

"Where were you? It's been more than an hour.... Anwar talk to her... And ask Where was she roaming around?" Her mother-in-law asked the first part angrily but said the second part to her son with full of anger, and pass the receiver to Maryam.

"Hello" Maryam took the receiver of phone to her ear and said while placing Hamdan's bag on floor which she was hanging on her shoulder.

"Where were you Maryam? And why you didn't informed Amma before going anywhere?"

'Can't he be little polite towards me? Why he is so much ruthless towards me?' She questioned herself and looked at her daughter who was still in her arm.

"I didn't went anywhere, just to pick Hamdan, today his bus arrived late Hamdan is saying that some issue had arrived in the bus that's why it took time to reach." Maryam informed the truth, Hamdan's bus arrived almost one hour late. Anwar stay silent for a moment.

"Have you went to your maternal home to meet your parents?" He asked in his manly voice but he wasn't sounding rude this time.

"No I haven't went there but, Hamdan's bus arrived late"

"Maryam if you went there then what's the matter say clearly, I don't have any problem, but don't lie" after listening the angry voice Maryam smiled sadly

"Will you believe on my answer?" she asked in hushed tone.

"If you will not lie then I'll definitely trust you"

"I'm telling truth, but if you have any doubt then I don't have anything to clarify that doubt." Maryam replied in hushed tone and felt wetness in her eyes.

"Okay, For now Give lunch to Hamdan, I'll talk to you in evening"

"Okay" saying that Maryam hanged up the call and reached to her room, made Shifa lay down on bed.

"Hamdan come here" Maryam yelled while drawing out Hamdan's clothes and placed her dupatta on nearby chair.

"Yes mummy" Hamdan came in room while running.

"Come take bath" Hamdan nodded and both entered in the bathroom

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Maryam open the door and Anwar entered in.

"What is this?" Maryam asked to Anwar when noticed a long and big cardboard box tied up with the bike.

"Cradle for Shifa" Anwar replied and Maryam smiled. He moved towards the room holding the cradle and Maryam followed him with smile and happiness.

"Papa" Hamdan run to Anwar and he lifted his son happily.

"Water" Maryam passed a glass of water and he nodded before gulping that. And Shifa again started crying

"What happened to her? She is crying since morning" Maryam said and lifted Shifa from the bed

"Is she ill?" Anwal asked and Maryam turned to saw him then shook her head.

"I don't think so. She was playing with Hamdan few minutes ago and suddenly started crying" Maryam said while rocking Shifa and Anwar nodded.

"Anwar..... Come here"

"Coming in five minutes Amma" Anwar yelled in reply and went to washroom. After freshen up he came out snd found Maryam sitting on the edge of the bed with Shifa in her arm.

"Now make her lay down in this cradle" Anwar said in same rude and ruthless tone, but he was noticing Maryam working in kitchen with great difficulty as she was carrying Shifa in her one arm, that's why he brought cradle for her.

He was setting up the cradle and Maryam smiled looking at his back

"Thanks" she mouthed and he nodded without any expression on his face, and moved towards the room of his mother. Maryam happily towards the cradle to made her daughter lay in that but at the same time...

"Maryammmm....." that was so much loud roar that Maryam jumped on her placed and her heart stopped beating for a couple of moments.

"J.. Ji... Aaiye"

(Ye.. Yes... Coming)

"Ya Allah Rehem" Mumbling the same she scoot towards Her mother-in-law's room, holding Shifa protectively and her heart was jumping like hell dur to fear.

(Allah please do mercy)

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CLIFFHANGER!!

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Kya kru aaj kal mere andar ki Rabiya bahar aa rahi hai...

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To thoda to aap logo ko bhi tolerate karna padega apni favourite character ke tantrums ko

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Mere paas koi Maaz to hai nhi tantrums dikhane ke liye 😜😜

_Naaz Jamal