My Mom's Personal Diary
My Mom's Personal Diary

Author: writerbyheart01

Published: 08/10/24

In a world where society claims to forgive, the reality often paints a different picture. We are told to rise like a phoenix from the ashes of our past, to embrace each bad chapter as a lesson. Yet, how often are people truly allowed to leave their past behind? Mistakes cling like roots to a treeā€”an inseparable part of who we are, shaping how we are judged and remembered. This thought-provoking book delves into the harsh truth: can anyone truly escape their past, or will society always hold it against them? Through powerful storytelling, it explores the journey of self-redemption and the constant battle for acceptance. Will the characters rise above the judgment, or will their past define them forever?

Chapters

THIRD PERSON'S POV :

"You both sit here I'm coming back in five minutes" saying that Musa left the room and Faraz was looking at Shifa who was looking scared and to be honest Faraz was also stressed due to Musa's studded step. Might be he did so because Faraz told him that he like Shifa. Faraz wanted to talk to her but not like that...

No Whatever both Faraz and Shifa wanted but they also knew that being alone in same room wasn't appropriate for both of them .

"Musa Uncle, where are you going?" Faraz and Musa both listened the scary voice of Shifa

"Beta I'm coming back in just five minutes, I have some work with you both" Musa said and Faraz sighed. He had a good idea about Musa's intention, but Faraz didn't want to listen anything wrong about him and Shifa like what Rani said few time ago.

"I'm coming with you Mama" Saying that Faraz also stepped towards Musa who opened his mouth to say something but stopped in between when

"Musa uncle I'm going, you tell me what work you have with me, I'll do downstairs" Shifa said while stepping out from the room and Musa looked at both of them.

"Musa Mama What work you have with us?" Faraz asked and Musa sighed.

"Go downstairs I'll tell you both" Musa said and Faraz also went downstairs.

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Faraz was sitting on the chair watching Shifa with unnoticeable sigh but Shifa was noticing the same. The feeling which she was trying to kill inside her heart, the same feeling started popping out after watching the same handsome face.

Shifa sat down with her parents, where Faraz's parents were also sitting.

"Shifa betaaaa" a loud call hit everyone's eardrums.

"Ji uncle" Shifa said suddenly stepping towards Musa who was sitting beside Faraz.

"Uncle you call me?" Shifa asked and musa handed over her a bundle of paper envelopes and a list.

"Shifa you both write these names on these envelopes then pass to Faraz" Musa said while offering seat to Shifa beside Faraz and Shifa looked at Faraz then ran her gaze towards Anwar who was busy in talking with others.

'Shifa sit here, there won't be any problem because Musa uncle is saying to do so' Her heart said and stepped towards the chair but suddenly stopped by the call of her brain.

'Shifa don't repeat the Past' she stopped on her place

'Let's see what will she do? If she is interested in me then she will definitely sit beside me, her small decision will give her answer' Faraz said to himself he was still watching Shifa without averting his eyes.

IN the time being Maryam's gaze travelled towards the direction of Shifa and her body lost its temperature because Shifa was standing in front of Faraz, she was scared that Anwar or Rani won't make a new issue due to that but...

Sometimes destiny supports you very much, that at the same time Anwar noticed Shifa looking at Faraz and he glared Maryam before going towards Shifa with long steps.

"Shifaaaa" that was a roar but in whisper which made Shifa jump on her place and made her heart beat fast.

"J.. Ji.. Pa.. Papa" only Anwar's red eyes were enough to made Shifa shivered with fear.

"Why are you standing here?" Anwar asked while glaring her angrily and grinding his teeth.

"Papa Musa uncle sai...." Shifa's sentence was cutted in between by Musa.

"Bhai sahab I said Shifa to write names on envelopes and Faraz will put money in them, I gave this work to Shriq but that boy is nothing but a useless piece of flesh" Musa informed Anwar and he looked at Shifa and Faraz both. On one hand Shifa was looking pale but Faraz was still looking at Shifa without blinking.

"Shifa come with me, I'll send Hamdan for this work" that was a rude order.

"Bhai sahab Hamdan is checking all the arrangements of catering along with Bilal and Shariq" Unwillingly Anwar nodded and gestured Shifa to sit on the chair placed beside Faraz's.

'Ya Allah please write him in my destiny, I don't think I could get better than him' Shifa pray in her heart and pay a quick glance on Faraz who was already looking at her. A slime made its way on Faraz's lips noticing her beside him and Shifa was also smiling widely but in her heart. Anwar took his seat beside Shifa and Musa sighed before going back from there.

Shifa started writing names on envelopes one by one and keep passing that to Faraz trying to glance at him but couldn't as Anwar's gaze was fixed on Shifa and Faraz's every single action.

Faraz was placing money in envelopes and searching for a single chance to ask Shifa why she didn't trust him and gave importance to her studies, but unfortunately he didn't get chance....

Shifa was busy her work of writing with bowed head but Faraz was busy in watching her...

He couldn't watch her directly due to Anwar's presence. But it didn't let him give up on his mission...

Mission: watching Shifa....

He was holding his mobile in his left hand, the screen was off but showing the reflection of her face who was busy in writing. Suddenly her gaze went to Faraz's mobile screen and she realised what he was doing since last few minutes. She lost the control over her heart and started watching Faraz's reflection which was also available on off screen. Both were watching each other. Shifa felt a big jolt in her crystal heart when remembered about her mother's past, she suddenly averted eyes.

"Shifa how much time you need to write just few names?" Anwar asked and Shifa tried to control her fastly beating heart.

"Papa just few minutes" she replied and started writing the names but she was busy in praying in her heart that may Allah write Faraz in his destiny, but Faraz was praying that may Shifa trust him and try to talk to him.

Faraz and Shifa both were sitting together, unknown to two pair of eyes who were watching them.

"I still like her" Nida whispered in Aazam's ear and he nodded slowly

"There pair is adorable" Aazam (Faraz's father) replied in whispered and Nida nodded

Maryam gave a clue to Nida and Aazam that she didn't had any problem with Faraz's proposal but she didn't clearly told anything as he was concerned about Rani's reputation more over her own goodness, because Anwar must wouldn't like if his sister felt humiliation in her in-laws. Deepdown in his heart Anwar also knew that Rani did wrong.

But everyone was thinking that its just about a proposal no one knew about the feelings of Shifa and Faraz.

All the time Faraz tried to ask a single question to Shifa but Shifa was continuously avoiding him because Anwar or Maryam both were around her and in the end Faraz conclude that Shifa was no more interested in him.

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After few hours...

(in Anwar's bedroom)

"Maryam"

"Ji" (yeah)

"Aaj ke baad Shifa ko kisi function me lekar Jane ki zarurat nhi hai. Khas toor par us jagah jaha Faraz ke hone ke chances ho" Maryam who was removing her jewellery; looked at him with surprised expressions

(from now onwards No need to talk Shifa to any family gatherings specially where Faraz must be present)

"Esa kyu keh rahe hain?" Maryam was shocked, she thought Rani said something inappropriate about Shifa and Faraz

(why?)

"Aaj main pura time Faraz ko hi notice kar raha tha, ek minute bhi uski nazar Shifa se nahi hat rahi thi... Or tum achhi tarah Jaanti ho Maryam is umar me dimag se zyada dil tez chalta hai, Shifa ko Faraz ke samne Jane se roko, main nhi chahta aage kuch galat ho" Maryam felt embarrassed one more time as she remembered about her past.

(Today I was Noticing Faraz all the time, his gaze was fixed on Shifa. He wasn't averting his eyes for even a single minute.... And Maryam you know it very well that heart run faster than brain in this age... So it's better to stop Shifa in going front of Faraz, I don't want anything wrong happen in future.)

"Don't worry no wrong will be happen. I trust Shifa" Maryam said and Anwar raised his brows.

"I know you trust Shifa but I want Shifa to maintain our trust" Anwar said and Maryam nodded but her heart was beating very fast.

"She'll" Maryam mumbled

"She should have to, otherwise you know what can I do with her. You are living a very good life If she crossed her limits then she will live a hell on the name of life. Make her understand" That was a clear threatening from Anwar and Maryam nodded while gulping, she didn't want to see Shifa living life like her.

"D.. Do Shifa was also... I mean have you noticed her..." Maryam couldn't find the way to ask if Shifa was also talking to Faraz or watching him, but Anwar understand the meaning of his wife's words.

"No, she wasn't looking at him, that's why I am not angry on her but she should be same in future too." Anwar said while standing up from the bed and Maryam nodded, he stepped in the bathroom and Maryam couldn't held her weight she sat down on bed or it would be better to say that she almost fell down on the bed

"Ya Allah save my Shifa from his anger, may my daughter never get indulge in these love affairs" Maryam did dua while hiding her face in her palms and unwillingly few tears popped out from her eyes. After a few minutes Anwar stepped out from the bathroom after changing in night suit and he felt bad for his wife when found her sitting hiding her face in both palms. He understood that Maryam was crying.

"Maryam, don't cry..." sitting beside her Anwar said and wrapped his arm around Maryam's shoulder, and she looked at him.

"You know very well I don't like you in this situation... Don't cry" Anwar said and Maryam cried more.

"That was my fault.. I did wrong... I didn't accept my parents decision... Shifa didn't do any mistake, she only have a single fault..." Maryam said while crying and Anwar gave her a side hug.

"Past is past... No need to discuss that.. I trust you" Anwar said and Maryam break the hug and maintain a little distance to watch him properly.

"You know what Is shifa's biggest mistake?" She asked

"What?"

"She took birth from my womb... Other than that she never commit any offence... She is being judged by you on the behalf of my past." she cried and Anwar sighed.

"Maryam I'm not judging her nor you, I already told you that you did a mistake in your teenage and now Shifa in the same age I don't want her to ruin her life and my reputation" Maryam nodded on that.

"Now change your clothes and sleep its already very late" Anwar ordered while cupping her cheek with his right hand. She was still in the same clothes which she wore in function

"I'll check children first then I'll sleep" Maryam siad and Anwar nodded.

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Both Nida and Aazam were laying on bed to sleep but both were remembering about what Maryam said....

"Indeed, Masha Allah Faraz is a gem, the girl will be lucky who will become his wife" Maryam said to Nida and Aazam was also listening to her.

"But I really felt hurt when someone denied to marry their daughter with Faraz.. I agree that it is the choice of parents but they people said that I'll not treat my daughter-in-law in good way" Nida expresses her anger and Maryam understood that 'someone' about whom Nida was talking was Maryam in herself, and Rani poisoned her ears

"Did they people told you all these things on your face?" Maryam asked and Nida shook her with furrowed brows.

"They people told all these things to someone close to me and I got to know from there" Nida informed and Maryam smiled

"It is also possible Nida Baji that they people haven't said anything about you... I mean to say... Sometimes people spread rumours to creat misunderstandings...".Maryam said and that point hitted somewhere in Aazam's brain

"Nida what do you think... Maryam and Anwar really refused for this proposal or Rani told us something wrong?!" Aazam discussed with his wife.

''After listening Maryam's talk I'm feeling that Rani lied to us" Nida said and Aazam hummed

"But what's the point of Rani to do so?" Aazam asked

"Shifa is Maryam's real daughter but Anwar's step daughter, maybe that's why Rani did so... Other than that I don't understand about any reason" Nida said and Aazan nodded with a sad face.

"But Musa haven't told us anything... He can't do anything like that... Don't do doubt on Rani maybe there are many misunderstandings!" Aazam said and Nida think for a while then sighed.

"whatever it is... No matter who did what or what not... The matter is.. That I still like Shifa and..." this time Aazam cutted off the sentence of his wife.

"Nida I also like that girl even when I watched Shifa and Faraz sitting beside each other I realised that their pair would be adorable..." He stopped after that.

"But now it's too late... Faraz is already engaged with Aamna... We did everything in hurry and now I'm regretting for that." Aazam said and Nida nodded.

"But Aamna is a nice girl.. Looks doesn't matter in front of nature and manners. And Aamna contains this quality, she is so much sweet spoken and well mannered girl... I just like her this thing, she isn't beautiful by face but by soul. But Shifa have both qualities.. She is beautiful as well as mannered girl, indeed she isn't enough sweet spoken like Aamna but still she has both qualities" Nida said and Aazam smiled

"Agree that Shifa is near to perfect to some extent but Masha allah Aamna is really a kind soul. May Allah bless her and my Faraz" Aazam said with a happy smile

"Aameen" Nida said with a same smile.

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On one hand Maryam was doing prayer that Shifa won't get involved in love affair and on other hand Aazam and Nida were praying that may Faraz and Aamna will spend their life together and happily but....

Two hearts were craving for each other...

crystal heart which was beating inside a fragile frame of a beautiful girl and other one was a gold heart, beating in the frame of a handsome boy.

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