SHIFA'S POV :

After coming back from Ramisha aapi's engagement I was in the pool of mixed emotions. Pain, happiness, fear, sorrow, jealousy, anger and regret were present in my heart.

Pain for myself and my heart...

Happiness that I saw Faraz and he was sitting beside me

Fear for any issue created by Rani phuppo

Sorrow because even after my wish I couldn't talk to Faraz

Regrets for my wrong decision, I should talk to him I'm shouldn't be timid

Anger on Rani phuppo to be a reason of all the misunderstandings

And.....

Jealousy.... For the first time in my life I was feeling jealous of someone... And that someone was Ramisha aapi. Her mother created so many problems but she was getting everything. When the function was over I was in her room and she was talking to her fiance on call, her smile and small chuckles were making me realise about the happiness of her heart and broken state of my heart. Then after sometime Rani phuppo came inside the room and hugged her daughter. She didn't though for a single moment that mummy never did wrong with her. Even she loved Ramisha aapi as a daughter then why Phuppo did that with me.

Leaving away my thoughts I made myself stand and approached to bathroom to change my clothes.

After taking a shower or said that after crying under shower I changed myself in comfortable suit and stepped out from the bathroom. Spreading prayer mat on the floor I made myself prepare for isha namaz.

After completing Namaz I started dua and few tears appeared in my eyes when I placed my head on floor for sajda (Prostration). "Ya Allah please give me Faraz.. Please... I don't want anyone else, I don't want to do anything which make can give anyone a chance to say that my mummy haven't raise me in good way but at the same time I want Faraz too... Please please do something, you can do everything... Do somethi..." I busy in my prayer when someone entered in the room and I suddenly raised my head from the position of Prostration. That was mummy.

"Shifa why are you crying babu?" Mummy asked and hurriedly wiped my tears and shook my head with a fake smile. Breaking the chain of prayer I stood up then folded the prayer mat and scoot in the bathroom to wash my face and hide my tears.

When I came out, mummy was sitting on the bed. "Shifa come here" she ordered me and I sat down beside her with a well acted smile but I was btill sniffing due to crying.

"Why are you crying? Beta I know you have many problems but at least you can share with me, don't hide everything inside you" She said and I smiled more.

"I don't have any problem" I said and she embraced me after kissing my forehead.

"Tell me the reason of your tears" Mummy asked and I try to hide my emotions, I didn't want to share anything with her because he would take stress and one more time I would become the reason of her pain.

"Mummy Shariq bhai made my fun that's why I was crying" I lied and mummy break the hug.

"No Shifa... This is not first time when Shariq did so, tell me the truth"

Why its impossible to hide anything from mother? How a mother can understands the feelings of their children without saying anything....

"Mummy papa gave gold bracelet to Ramisha Aapi but he never gave me anything" I again placed a new reason in front of mummy and that worked...

"Really Shifa? Is this the reason of these tears?" Mummy asked and I nodded.

"You are my brave girl, don't cry like this.. Papa loves you beta but he don't show his love and if its about a gold bracelet then don't worry I have a very pretty gold bracelet and I'll give that to you" Mummy said and I shook my head.

"It's okay I don't want any gold bracelet" I said and mummy smiled sadly.

"You are my wise daughter" she caressed my head and smiled, then held my both hands

"Shifa today I'm telling you one thing, and you should remember this for your whole life" Mummy said very seriously and I nodded slowly

"What mumma"

"Shifa beta never get involved with any boy. You are very beautiful and innocent too. These two qualities are enough for boys to make girls their pray." Mumma told me with tearfilled eyes and I knew the reason of those tears.

"Mumma please don't cry" I said and she smiled while kissing my forehead

"Shifa Beta main nhi chahti ki tumhe kabhi bhi koi bhi pareshani ho. Main or tumhare papa tumhare liye bot achha ladka dhhudhenge magar tum kabhi kisi ladke ke chakkar me mat padna... Ye ladke sirf kuch time ke liye sunhere khwab dikhate hain par baad main ek kaanto ke jangle me akela chhod kar chale jate hain. Tum abhi itni samajhdaar nhi ho ki sahi or galat ke beech ka farq pata laga pao" saying the same mummy wiped her either cheek and I nodded slowly.

(Shifa dear I don't want you to face any problem in your life. Me and your papa will search a very nice guy for you but you don't have to be indulge in these type of affairs.... These boys show a dreamland to girls but after sometime they leave those girls in the darkest forest of their life. You are not enough wise to differentiate between good and bad for yourself)

"Shifa" mumma utter and I hummed.

"Beta promise me" mumma raised her right palm in front of me

"What?" I asked slowly.

"You will only focus on your studies not any boy" Mummy said and I nodded slowly without looking at her.

"I don't want anyone to say that my Shifa is a charct...Characterless girl" Mummy said and two tears rolled down from her eyes, I nodded and wiped her tears

"Mummy I'll never do anything wrong" I assured her and she caressed my cheek.

"I know my baby is a very good girl" mummy said while pressing her lips together to control her sob.

"Mummy please don't cry" I wiped her tears again and she nodded

"Beta I'm trusting you, but please don't break my trust ever" mumma pleaded with tearfilled eyes, she was looking helpless and I was felling her pain.

"I'll never break your trust, I'll never do anything which can lead to disrespect you and papa in society" I said honestly and felt her hand on my head.

"Promise?" she asked and I smiled a little.

"promise" I assured her.

"Mera pyara bachha" She caressed my head and I felt happy.

(my good girl)

"Now sleep, its ready very late" Mumma said and I shook my head.

"I'm not sleepy" I replied and she smiled.

"Come here I'll make my daughter sleep" She said and made me lay down while placing my head in her lap and started massaging my scalp with her fingers.

"Mumma"

"Yeah"

"Why you said all these things now? You haven't said anything like that before" I expressed my thoughts

"Today your papa noticed a boy watching you and he became angry.." my heart skipped a beat on the I didn't let mumma complete and sat down on bed with a jolt

"Is...pa.pa angry with me?" I asked, I was scared and mumma shook her head.

"No my baby, you haven't did anything why he would be angry on you. He just told me to guide you to not attract towards any boy." I took relief breath on that, but suddenly I felt the urge to ask something

"Mumma was that b.. boy?" I asked as I had a strong feeling about Faraz.

"You don't have to think about that" Mummy dropped off the matter and I nodded unwillingly but I was sure about Faraz because no one else was watching me except him. Most probably....

I lay down again placing my head in mummy's lap, she keep caressing my head, she was trying to make me sleep but I was restless. After watching Faraz my heart I lost control over my heart. I was trying to kill the feeling for him but when he smiled looking at me through his mobile screen I forgot everything; that feeling again popped inside my heart. His gaze made me made my heart crazy and my dreamland again bloomed with happiness...

But at the same time after watching tears in mumma's eyes I became scared. I don't want a life like my mother...

I was Blankout one side was Faraz who was seems like a dream guy for any girl but in the other land there was My Mom's Personal life, in which my biological father betrayed her.

My brain was asking numerous questions and dealing with those question I didn't realise when I entered in the land of nod

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THIRD PERSON'S POV:

Maryam caressed shifa's head and kissed her forehead who was sleeping placing her head in her mother's lap.

"Aatish you are unlucky that you left such a beautiful, sweet and wise daughter." Maryam again smiled but this time sadly still caressing Shifa's head.

Slowly shifting her head on pillow Maryam stepped out from the bed and covered Shifa with sheet, before turning off the light. Before going back to her room she decided to pay a glance at her sons.

She open the door slowly and found Bilal sleeping on his stomach, half duvet was covering his one leg and remaining half was hanging down from the bed, but other side of bed was empty. Hamdan wasn't in the room. Stepping towards Bilal Maryam covered him properly then looked here there to found Hamdan but he wasn't anywhere. After checking in one more room and courtyard Maryam became anxious for him them she decided to went to terrace.

Stepping on the terrace she found Hamdan sitting on the floor, resting his back from wall, his knees were bended towards his chest and he was busy in watching a photo holding a photo frame in his hands.

"Hamdan" Maryam uttered and Hamdan suddenly placed the photo frame back on floor.

"Yeah mummy" his voice was heavy giving the address of tears present in his eyes.

"What happened beta?" Maryam asked after sitting beside him and he shook his head while standing up from his place and mumbled ''Nothing mummy", but Maryam held his hand and gestured him to sit again

"Missing your mummy?" she asked and Hamdan nodded with a small smile but sadness was visible in his eyes.

"Babu that was destiny" Maryam said and Hamdan nodded silently.

"Yes" he uttered with difficulty

"I try my best to not discriminate between you and Shifa and Bilal" Maryam said and Hamdan smiled

"Mummy I never feels like you are not my mother, even if I wouldn't had that much scenes to remember about mummy then maybe I never thought that I'm not your son" Hamdan said and Maryam smiled.

"You are my elder son beta, you don't have to think about it." Hamdan nodded with a smile and picked the frame from floor.

"From where you get this picture?" Maryam asked and Hamdan again looked at that photo.

"From loft, today in morning I was searching for my old dumbbells and I got this" He said slowly and Maryam think for a while.

"Hamdan"

"Yes mummy"

"Beta keep this on some place where Shifa or Bilal won't find it." Maryam said in slow voice, that was the same family photo which Anwar use to after his wife's death.

"Shifa and Bilal don't know anything about... Only you know it and..." MARYAM'S sentence was cutted off by Hamdan

"Don't worry mummy, I remember about my promise" Maryam smiled on his statement.

When Hamdan was only seven, he understood that Shifa and Bilal were his step sister and brother. Not by himself but due to grace of Rani... At that time Maryam and Anwar made them understand that they all are real brother and sister, and they don't have to think each other as step siblings they took promise from Hamdan that he won't disclose that secret to Shifa and Bilal ever.

"You are the best son and my Shifa is the best daughter one can get" Maryam said honestly. Hamdan smiled on that

"And what about my Bilal?" Hamdan asked with a chuckle and Maryam smacked her forehead while getting up.

"I don't know what to say about this boy, pta nahi kab bada hoga... Abhi bhi chhota bachha bna rehta hai" Maryam said and gestured Hamdan to come downstairs which he obeyed with a smile.

(don't know when he will start behaving like a mature boy, he is still irresponsible like kids.)

"Now sleep, it's very late" Maryam said and Hamdan nodded before entering in his room.

Maryqm entered in her bedroom and found Anwar sleeping peacefully but her sleep was on rest because of Anwar's ruthless threatening.

She sat down on bed while holding her head with both hands, she was feeling wetness in her eyes. When a hand touched her back.

"Maryam"

"Ji"

"What happened now? Why aren't you sleeping?" Anwar asked and she removed her hands from her face.

"Why are you crying?"

"Shifa promised me that she won't break our trust" Maryam mumbled and Anwar nodded.

"good for her" Closing his eyes he said

"Shifa was crying..." Maryam stopped after that and Anwar opened his eyes.

"But why?"

"She was saying that you don't love her. She was asking that why papa don't love her?" Maryam asked and Anwar sighed.

"Maryam say her to study hard. I want her to settle down in her life, she should be self dependent not like you... totally dependent on your father before marriage and dependent on husband after marriage" saying that Anwar held Maryam's arm and ordered her to sleep and she nodded

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FARAZ'S POV :

After watching Shifa I was feeling helpless.. That was the first time in my life when I like a girl this much, its been around six or seven months when I saw her last time, but today she was looking different. Maybe because of her new hairstyle or something else, but she was still able to snatch away my soul from my frame with her beauty. Today we both were sitting beside each other....

Shifa is the only girl who is making me crazy, if she wouldn't be Shifa or any other girl I wouldn't stop myself to talk to her. But in her case their is a problem... She is the daughter of Musa Mama's brother-in-law. If anything went wrong then our families will be against each other.

If Shifa would be from my friend circle or anyone else then I would talk to her without any hesitation but there I couldn't ask to her directly if she loves me or not? If anyone catch us then there would be many problems. We both were just standing in front of each other... On that small thing Rani mami made an issue then I can't imagine the result of anything else.

There is one more problem, this one is the biggest problem....

That girl never even gave me any hint that even she like me or not? If I consideres her DP then they gave simple and general messages, only on the bases of dp I couldn't conclude anything. If I think about the way of her behaviour then that would be a big riddle in itself because she don't show any emotions, she always sit with her mother and usually don't look at me...

Or if she use to look at me then I haven't noticed her. And today when we both were sitting together she haven't even looked at me.

When mama uncle tried to made us talk them she was looking pale I think she isn't comfortable in talking to me. After all she gave preference to her studies over me.

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Many days passed in the same way I was still wanted to talk to her but stopping myself from doing so because I was afraid of any problem not for myself but for her

But that was enough of my tolerance... I was in hospital, sitting silently in my cabin when I drew out my mobile to call her. I was just going to dial her number but stooped myself. Instead of using my mobile I decided to call her from the land-line phone of hospital.

I dialled her number and the ring was going on, with every ring my heart beat was running marathon but no one received the call and I closed my eyes after holding my hand. But I didn't gave up I again and again dialled her number and....

On fifth attempt....

"Hello" she received my call... Her voice gave me a different happiness, I smiled.

"Hello?" she again said and I again smiled on her sweet voice.

"Hello" I replied.

"Ji kon?" Her sweet voice rang in my ears

(yes who is this?)

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