THIRD PERSON'S POV :

It's been two month after shifa's result, she was preparing for NEET for next year but at the same time she was waiting for Faraz's proposal which wasn't came yet.

She was busy in watching his DPs, but from last week. Faraz's DPs were not giving the happy massages but the sad one, first Shifa didn't understand the meaning she thought maybe Faraz was just trying to say about his feelings.

Faraz's DPs

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SHIFA'S POV :

I was sitting in my room when the door bell rang. I made herself stand and went to the door to open that.

After opening the door I found a smiling face with a gentle and genuine smile. That was quite undigestable to watch that rude face with smile.

"Beta, is bhai in the home?" Rani phuppo asked and I shook my head. Papa use to come back in evening from his work, she knew that very well.

But the main thing which I hitted my ear and brain was a single word beta

"where Is bhabhi?" She asked and I was Amazed by her happy face, she was a lady who can't be happy in any situation. Even she argue with Musa uncle if he bought something for her worth of 5000 just because her sister-in-law get an item worth of 5100 from her husband. Her happiness was undigestable for me.

"Mummy is in bathroom" I said and she nodded I offered her water in the time being mumma came out from the there and started talking to her. I usually don't like to sit with people so as usually I made my way to my room.

Whole day passed in the same way I was busy in studying, in the evening I started feeling hungry so I wen to kitchen where mummy was working. Rani phuppo was left by then.

"Mummy I'm starving give me something to eat" I said while peeping in the cooker that was there for dinner, and I was sad because that was bitter guard...

I can't understand who must be the first person on this planet who discovered Bitter guard as an consumables vegetable!!

"Mummy why are you making...." She didn't let me complete

"Draw out biscuits from cupboard and have that" She said in hushed tone and I nodded, I listened her sob sound when I was going out from the kitchen.

"Mumma..." I went back to her

"Are you crying?" I asked and she shook her head slowly with a smile I mean a fake one.

"No I'm not crying, this is because of onion chopping" She said and I went to my room without asking about the reason because I thought mummy was saying the truth.

I lay down on bed and started having my biscuits while listening songs on FM. and the next song made me blushed when I think about Faraz.

Ek Din Aap Yoon Humko Mil Jayenge

Phool Hi Phool Raahon Mein Khil Jayenge

Maine Socha Na Tha

Ek Din Zindagi Itni Hogi Haseen

Jhoomega Aasmaan Gaayegi Ye Zameen

Maine Socha Na Tha

Dil Ki Daali Pe Kaliyaan Si Khilne Lagin

Jab Nigaahein Nigaahon Se Milne Lagin

Ek Din Is Tarah Hosh Kho Jayenge

Paas Aaye To Madhosh Ho Jayenge

Maine Socha Na Tha

Ek Din Aap Yoon Humko Mil Jayenge

"By the way Mr. Faraz your Ammi doesn't came yet" I mumbled while closing my eyes with a smile and his smiling face was visible in front of my eyes.

"Dil Ki Daali Pe Kaliyaan Si Khilne Lagin

Jab Nigaahein Nigaahon Se Milne Lagin" I was singing the song while imagining him and his handsome face..

"Shifaaa..."

"yeah mummy.... Coming" I scoot to the kitchen after off the FM.

"Shifa I can't do this, you cook for dinner" Mummy said and I nodded she went to her room and I started cooking.

After some time I wen to her room and found her laying down on bed with closed eyes, I didn't disturbed her and took back steps towards the kitchen.

After making roti which was the most tiring work for me I went to check mummy's condition. At the same time the door bell rang and I scoot to the door, that was Papa who came back from his work. I gave him water and he asked about mummy and my both brothers. And I informed that they both were in phuppo's place and mummy is sick.

"Maryam" papa and me entered the room at the same time and papa checked her fever, which wasn't existing

"Kya hua?" He asked after sitting beside her and I also sat down on the other side of mummy.

(what happened?)

"Headache, sharp headache" Mummy mumbled and Papa made her sat down on bed.

"Shifa make tea for her" papa ordered me and I nodded while going down from the bed.

"No.. Not tea. My BP is high" I turned to saw her. Her BP only shoots when she took tention otherwise it never happenes.

"Are you thinking about anything?" papa asked and she nodded.

"Shifa have you make dinner?" I nodded on her question

"Go babu take rest for some time" Mummy said and I nodded before going towards the room then I thought to gave her water, because it's better to have plenty of water in high blood pressure.

I pour little cold water in glass, placed that in a tray and marched to the mummy's room.

"Achha hua humne uske saamne kabhi koi baat nahi.." Mumma have this. I listen what mummy was saying to papa but honestly I did not get the meaning.

(It's better that we didn't discuss anything in fro...)

"Shifa go to your room" I nodded on papa's order and did so.

I went to room where my mobile was ringing that was Affi's call.

"Hello my miss drama queen" I said very happily when I received the call.

"What?" I exclaimed as if I said something unusual

"Are you really happy or just showing?" she asked and I smiled.

"Affi I'm happy yaar, why are you behaving like this?" I asked because she was behaving like I was joking.

"Shifa do you know anything or not? Did Faraz bhai call you or not?" this time I felt something fishy, what was related to Faraz?

"Faraz.. We don't talk, you know naa" I said but I was feeling negative.

"What happened Affo?"

"Shifa we got invitation of Faraz bhai's engagement which is after two days" I listened but I didn't got what she said, or maybe I didn't wanted to understand

"What do you mean? Nida aunty haven't come to our home yet!" I said in hushed tone and I sat down on bed with madly beating heart.

"Shifa his engagement is fixed with some other girl, her name is Aamna" I was silent. I didn't had any type of emotions in my heart. I was shocked. Everything was fine, Nida aunty was ready to come with proposal but...

I felt tears running down from my eyes, they were burning my cheeks.

"Shifa are you listening?" she asked and I was feeling someone caged me in a box where everywhere is just darkness nothing else.

"But... Affo... Faraz" I didn't had words to say anything. I hanged up the call and fell down on bed.

"That's why Rani phuppo was so much happy!" I mumbled while wiping my tears and looked at the DP.

What That was showing snatched my heart.

"Cheater, lair, betrayer... You gave me your number, you were the one who always promised me for everything. You were the first person who let me dream. Why you did all those things Faraz. I was controlling myself but your DPs dragged me to you. And...." I mumbled while hiding my face in my palms I was crying with hiccups, but trying to suppress the voice so that mummy or papa couldn't listened.

"Shifa why you did so don't you know boys always betray, why you trust Faraz...." I scolded myself

Due to the same reason I never wanted to thought about Faraz. I was afraid of the same result, but when I listened that his mother is ready to bring my proposal then I quit in front of my heart because I had ful hope that one day Faraz will come to take me with him...

But...

"shaffo" I listened Hamdan bhai's call. I don't know when did he came back, but I was crying badly and I couldn't show him my tears so I lay down on bed facing opposite to door after covering myself with sheet.

"Shaffo" He again knocked but I tightly closed my eyes and stopped to take breath so that I couldn't sob.

"Shaffo I'm coming in" I listened Hamdan bhai's call but didn't moved, and he entered the room.

"Shaffo are you sleeping babu?" He asked but I stay silent. I felt his hand caressing my head and very next moment I listened the door, which he shut before going back.

I cried for whole night, I cried that much that my eyes became puffed, enough puffed that they were not opening properly.

His face, his smile, his gazing everything was roaming in my head. I again saw his DP which was still showing that that betrayer will not betray.

'How double faced you are Faraz, now for whom this DP is? For me or for your would be fiancé?' I asked to him in my thoughts and closed my eyes to let the tears flow and I created a meme and posted on my DP.

{english translation : Sarfaraz has betrayed. (it's a Hindi movie 'pk' dialogue)}

I posted and throw my mobile on mattress, with flowing eyes.

I was in deep shock how it could be happen, I was waiting for his proposal but I got the news of his engagement. He was passing his time by doing all these things...

I was in the dept of greef, the one whom I was thinking as a first ray of sun of my dark life in actually he comes out as a darkest night ever. I listened fajr Azaan and realised that I was awaken whole night. Just for crying.

I offered Namaz and raised my hands in front of Allah.. I was still crying with hiccups but tears were not coming out from my eyes.

"Allah Ta'ala... Allah pak... Faraz.. Faraz is very bad, he is a cheater person, Allah he is a cheater... But why Allah pak, why did he do so? Why did he play with my heart? Allah pak it was my fault too. Why I think about him? Allah pak... Faraz.. Faraz.. Allah Ta'ala I never think about any boy, you know everything then why I think about that betrayer? Why I trust on him? Why I did so? If Nida aunty was not interested then why Musa Uncle ask that question to Papa? And why I start thinking about Faraz?" I cried in front of Allah

There were no one for me with whom I could share my feelings and my condition except Allah. I ask many questions and did complaints of Faraz. After crying that much my eyes became dry, they were burning. I made myself stand, folded the prayer mat and placed that in cupboard. Then I went to bathroom holding my clothes.

I saw my face in the mirror and for a few seconds I didn't recognized myself, my eyes, nose and lips were swelled and red. I splash water on my face after hanging my clothes. But I didn't had power to do anything. I went back to my bed without having bath.

"Shifa, have you offered namaz?" I listened bhai's call and try to avoid the question because my voice was horsey due to crying all night.

"Shifa babu come for breakfast" I listened his call but, I couldn't go in front of everyone.

What would everybody think about my condition? What would I answer them why my eyes are become that much sweeled?!

"Aapi" I listened Bilal's voice and he entered in the room after a knock i was still laying while covering myself with sheet.

"Aapi How much will you sleep?" He shouted and went out from the room.

"Shifa.. Why are you sleeping too late? You never slept like this" Hamdan bhai entered in the room, either mummy was ill or she was enough busy in kitchen that she send Hamdan bhai.

"Shifa" this time Hamdan bhai shook my shoulder,and I couldn't act like sleeping anymore.

"Bhai I was studying whole night. I lay down just now" I said in hushed tone, my eyes were still closed and my face was half covered with sheet.

"Atleast do breakfast, you skipped dinner too" He said and I shook my head without uncovering my face.

"Bhai let me sleep" I said and He patter my head.

"Mummy is sleeping and we three are going you take care of home and yourself" Bhai said and I nodded.

"Bhai your breakfast?" I said without uncovering my face.

"We had cornflakes, you too do breakfast after sometime" Bhai left the room after saying that and I again felt tears in my eyes, but this time I didn't realised when I slept.

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Jo khooda maazi ki jadon ko to dukho ki deemak ko betha paaya hai wahan humne.

Jo aati hai nazar yahan haryali woh asal me, kaanto ko patto se chupaya hai humne.

जो खोदा माज़ी की जाड़ों को तो दुखों

की दीमक को बेठा पाया है वहाँ हमने,

जो आती है नज़र यहां हरियाली, वो असल

में कांटों को पत्तों से छिपाया है हमने.

_Naaz Jamal

(21. July. 2017)

(Maazi: Past)

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So my dear readers....

What do you think

Is Faraz betraying Shifa?

What will happen now?

Wait for some time because its time to reveal the Secrate of Mom's Personal Diary

_Naaz Jamal