My Mom's Personal Diary
My Mom's Personal Diary

Author: writerbyheart01

Published: 08/10/24

In a world where society claims to forgive, the reality often paints a different picture. We are told to rise like a phoenix from the ashes of our past, to embrace each bad chapter as a lesson. Yet, how often are people truly allowed to leave their past behind? Mistakes cling like roots to a treeโ€”an inseparable part of who we are, shaping how we are judged and remembered. This thought-provoking book delves into the harsh truth: can anyone truly escape their past, or will society always hold it against them? Through powerful storytelling, it explores the journey of self-redemption and the constant battle for acceptance. Will the characters rise above the judgment, or will their past define them forever?

Chapters


SHIFA'S POV :

I was Amazed on what I saw. Was he the same person or someone else I was running my mind in every direction but not getting a single clue..

Is it possible that two people have same faces if yes then I was sure that he was not Faraz. How could he be in Delhi, I know very well that he lives in Mumbai with his family.

"Stop it Shifa you don't have to think about him, you are diverting yourself from your aim, you have to be a doctor" I scolded myself and took a deep breath.

I closed my eyes and tried to sleep but his face was again in front of my eyes. I tried my best to forgot about him but couldn't.

I don't know what happened to me, I never look at any boy with that type of feeling but Faraz was different, he did something to me...

Maybe that was the reason of teenage or Bollywood movies in which a girl got crazy with the first glance of hero or maybe something else but the truth was I was just thinking about Faraz. In three years I tried my best to forgot him and I almost forgot him but..

That bike rider make me remember him, I think he was Faraz. But he was quite change in these three years he bacame muscular and had light stubble beard, he was looking more personable and sightly with his new look, his square glasses were looking very well on him.

After watching him I was feeling a different happiness as well as a different tinkling in my heart, but why I was feeling like that??

I shouldn't do that.. I should think about my future, my pledge and my mumma..

"Shifa stop thinking about Faraz, he is nothing to you, and you can't trust him" I scolded myself and tried my best to sleep and thankfully I was entered the land of nod soon.

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After Two days

I was sitting in my room and that was a Sunday I was planning to help my mumma in kitchen. I walked towards the room where they both were sitting

"Mumma, Papa today I'll make breakfast for you" I said happily and mummy refused to do so but I wanted to do something so I show my stubborn side and went to kitchen for making breakfast.

I drew out milk from fridge to make tea and picked two eggs. "Fried eggs or Poached egg" I mumbled and I was answerless placing the eggs on kitchen counter I went towards the room where papa and mummy was sitting.

" I'm telling you..." papa was saying something but mumma didn't let him complete

"Don't worry, please trust me. Shifa will never break our trust." I listened mummy's voice and feet stopped outside the room for a moment but I continued my walk

"Maryam you know very well my reputation comes before everyone for me. And I can't trust her" papa was saying the same when I entered the room.

"Papa fried egg or Poached egg?" I asked and he gave me answer. I silently made my way to kitchen.

It really hurts, I was killing myself, and he couldn't trust me!! What offence had I done from the time of childhood that he couldn't trust me?

I surved breakfast and we all set down to have it, I was still beside mumma.

"Maryam iron my clothes, and how much time you needed?" Papa asked after lifting the cup of tea

"I already ironed your clothes and I'll be ready before noon" Mummy said and papa nodded.

"Tea is nice" I listened papa's compliment and I focused on my breakfast rather than compliment

"Where are you going mumma?" I asked and she informed me that she was going to our phuppo's home with papa.

"Do you want to come?" Mummy asked to three of us siblings and shook my head but my brothers nodded happily

"Shifa and Bilal you both are not going anywhere, stay home, and study for exams, you both have board exams, prepare for that" Papa said and I nodded with a smile and Bilal nodded with down face. I didn't wanted to go to phuppo's Place but Bilal wanted to, but that time I was feeling as a winner.

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"Exons

Exons are coding sequences of DNA in eukaryotes that transcribe for proteins"

"Was he Faraz or just someone who resembles him?" I mumbled and suddenly shook my head

"Focus Shifa, you have to study, there is no Faraz for you" I scolded myself and again strated learning

"Promoter

Promoter is a region of DNA that helps in initiating the process of transcription. It serves as the binding site for RNA polymerase."

"But he was same..."

"Ya Allah... What is going in with me? I'm reading about Exons and promoters but thinking about Faraz." I mumbled and closed the books.

That was seems impossible for me to study so I stepped towards bed and picked my mobile, I decided to text my Affo

What are you doing

miss drama queen?

๐Ÿ‘ธ๐Ÿคจ๐Ÿคจ

I texted her and within a single moment I got the reply

Waiting for my Mr.drama

king, hayyy... Pta nahi

kahan hoga? ๐Ÿคด๐Ÿ™ˆ

๐Ÿ‘‰ ๐Ÿ‘ˆ โ˜บ๏ธ

(I don't know where is he)

Affi are you really gone

mad or what? ๐Ÿคค๐Ÿคค

Is someone...?!

๐Ÿ˜ฒ

I texted and waited for her reply

Which I received soon

Huh!! ๐Ÿ˜’๐Ÿ˜’

No one. Ladko ko tujhe

propose krne se furat hi

nahi milti jo mere Bare

main koi soche.. ๐Ÿ˜’๐Ÿ˜ข

(Boys don't have time to

Think about me as they are

Busy in proposing you)

I literally smacked my forehead on her reply

So cheap Affo..

๐Ÿ˜‘

Focus on studies..

๐Ÿ˜ก

Do you really want to make

me like you? ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ™„

No, I don't want you to

be like me.. And tbh you can't

be. Btw is there anyone whom

you want to propose you?

I asked a question but I was sure that I would got the reply as no one..

But this girl always left me surprised

Uzaif...

๐Ÿ˜โค๏ธ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿคซ

'What? Uzaif!!' I screamed loudly in my thoughts. He took addmision in our class when we were in ninth standard and I never thought that Affi could think something like that about him..

Affi haven't you get anyone

else? ๐Ÿ˜ฒ๐Ÿ˜ฒ๐Ÿคค

Actually Yaseen is busy

with you, ๐Ÿ˜ so I thought

that I have to manage with

Uzaif... ๐Ÿ˜ช๐Ÿ˜ช

Mad, crazy I'm not busy with

anyone, neither I want to be

๐Ÿ˜ก๐Ÿ˜ก

But Uzaif..

I mean...

๐Ÿ˜ฌ๐Ÿ˜ฌ๐Ÿ˜ฌ

Shifa deviiii....

Aap apne kaam se kaam

rakhiye...๐Ÿ˜‘๐Ÿ˜‘ Don't you dare

to say anything about him

(mind your own business)

Huh!! Go to hell, that too with

that Uzaif....

๐Ÿ˜’..

I don't like him that much

That I go to hell after him.

๐Ÿคญ ๐Ÿคญ ๐Ÿคญ


๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ

I was just kidding I'm not

Interested in Ufaiz, even I'm

Not interested in your Yaseen

too. ๐Ÿ˜‰

He is not mine ๐Ÿ˜ก

Neither I want to make him

mine.

Don't tell anything odd..

Okk... Fine don't be angry

๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜

Affooo, listen..

I'll READ you say (text)

๐Ÿคญ๐Ÿ˜

How is Ifra aapi?

I asked on text message but in actually i wasn't interested in her but I want to know about her brother

You remember her?

It's pretty long time

๐Ÿ˜ฎ๐Ÿ˜ฎ

Her brother never let me sleep peacefully in those three years, how could I forgot two of them

Yeah I remember

Ifra aapi is marriade now,

and she has a daughter.

๐Ÿค”๐Ÿค”๐Ÿค”

Hmm.. One more thing....

They people are shifted

in delhi....

I read and I was sure by then that he was Faraz not any one else. He was real Faraz...

"Stop it Shifa, if Ifra aapi got married maybe he also be married my now, they both are twins..." I said in my heart

"But he must be.. 22 or probably 23..." I think and nodded

"shifaaa... Stop this non sense, you shouldn't have any interest in him, no matter if he is 23 or 32 you focus on studies, I can break your promise" My soul scolded me and I took a deep breath and calm down my jumping heart.

Are you there??

Miss... Behen ji.. ๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿ‘‹

Where are you?

I received Afifa's text and I got out from my trance...

Yups.. I'm here but now I have

to study, so ttul

๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿ‘‹

Bye..

See you in school..

I

ended up the conversation with that then delete the chat from my mobile and Faraz's topic from my brain...

But my heart was not ready to delete that topic..

But time to back to study...

I bowed down my head to my books and started to study and I didn't realised when it turned to night and the door bell rang. I went to door but Bilal already was there to open the door. Mummy papa and Hamdan bhai entered in and papa handed over me three boxes of pizza.

"For dinner"

THIRD PERSON'S POV

"For Dinner" He said and Bilal and shifa both smiled. They all love pizza as well as fresh air, so they use to sat down in courtyard after dinner.

That day weather was very nice so they decided to have their dinner in courtyard. Spreading a sheet in courtyard and they all sat down in a circle, pizza boxes were placed between them and five of them were busy in having there dinner...

"Hmm.." Maryam looked up on the her husband's voice and she smiled as he passed her favourite toppings pizza slice to her. She took and started having that...

That wasn't a big deal for a husband to give a small thing to his wife but for Maryam that was really a big deal...

"Shifa"

"Ji bhai"

(yeah bhai)

"Ifra was asking about you!" Shifa was startled by that

"If.. Ifar aapi? But you went to phuppo's place" Shifa asked with confusion

"Beta... Your phuppo is Ifra's mami. Ifra was also there to meet them" Shifa listened and nodded but didn't asked or say anything else.

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"Sing a song"

"No"

"Singggg" whole class yelled in whispered and Shifa nodded. There was a free period so the class was free to do anything

"Which song??" She asked and everyone shrugged so the choose was hers...

Main tenu samjhawan ki

Na tere baajo lagda jee

Main tenu samjhawan ki

Na tere baajo lagda jee

Tu ki jaane pyaar mera

Main karaan intezar tera

Tu dil, te yon jaan meri

Main tenu samjhawan ki...

mere dil vich re ke mere dil da haal na Jaane...

tere baajo kaleyan beh ke ronde nain numane

jeena mera haey, marna mera naal tere si

kar aetibar mera,

main karaan intezar tera

tu dil tu yun jaan meri

main tenu samjhawaan ki

na tera baajo lagda jee ...

"woohhh"

"What a songggg..." everyone clapped in slow voice

"Thank you" She mouthed on her praise and again stated doing her physics numericals.

"Shifa"

"Hmm?" she looked at the other girl of class.

"Hey guys lets take a little interview of our singer" That girl said in loud voice..

"We are not interested in her interview" Some of the boys said in mocking way because Shifa never talk to them, but she igroged.

"But I'm sure, someone else must be interested in her Booring interview" A boy said to other with mocking smirk and winked at Yaseen, he was shocked, he suddenly looked at Shifa but luckily she didn't noticed that wink.

"So the first question is..." the girl yelled and a boy suddenly put a question in front of Shifa

"Why are you so silent? Is there any issue in your voice box?" He laughed and gave a high five to the boy who was in his right side. Shifa was silent she lifted her head to saw them but stopped herself to answer.

"No, not in voice box but in brain.., her voice is melodious.." a girl said and Shifa felt embarrassed but as usually she stay silent.

"Stop it guys, come to the main point" the girl who was taking interview said and everyone was enjoying the fun making session of Shifa, excluded Yaseen.

"Whom you want to dedicate the song which you sang?"

"Watt!?? No one" Shifa silently mouthed

"From where you bring that feeling in your song? It seems you love someone" Shifa and Yaseen both got startled by that question...

"Mahima.. What the hell is this? Why are you asking these questions?" Shifa asked after putting her on desk with jolt.

"I also love think so, someone is in love in our class" A girl said and Shifa glared her

"Hima.. Enough!" Shifa said angrily

"I'm not talking about you but someone else? I'm talking about Yaseen" that girl said and Shifa looked at her then Yaseen.

"Hima.. What are you saying?" yaseen asked in clumsy voice.

"Shifa don't you think this boy is roaming around you like a bumblebee?" a boy said and both Shifa and Yaseen both looked at each other with awkward look and feel embarrassed.

"Kunal think before saying anything about me" Shifa said loudly while glaring him.

"What's the matter with you guys? From which thing you can sense like this?" Yaseen yelled and Shifa also glared everyone.

"We are just good friends!!" Yaseen said in loud voice and Shifa took a relief breath.

"No Yaseen, we are not even good friends! We are just class mates" Shifa said while narrowing her eyes and Yaseen was nubm.

............................

We are just class mates

These were only three words but shattered a heart in many pieces...

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Hey

My dear lovely readers

Yesterday I wrote a totally different chapter, but when I read that before publishing I felt that was a mess nothing else..

So I preferred to delete that and write a new one...

Hope you all like this.

And welcome new readers.

_Naaz Jamal