Dil tutne se zyada dard bharosa tutne par hota hai

Dil tutne ke baad jud jata hai magar bharosa nahi judta

दिल टूटने से ज़्यादा दर्द भरोसा

टूटने पर होता है,

दिल तो टूटने के बाद जुड़ जाता है,

मगर भरोसा नही जुड़ता

(Broken trust is more painful than broken heart

Broken heart can be mend but not trust)

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THIRD PERSON'S POV:

"Rani did you talk to Shifa's parents? I already said that we only go with proposal if they don't have any problem. I don't want that we go with proposal and they reject it, it would be insulting for us" Nida asked to Rani and she felt anger.

"Nida Baji a talk to Maryam bhabhi, even I said that Faraz is a gem but she... She don't want to do this match. She was saying that she will do Marriage in her family, in their relatives." Rani said and Nida was shocked.

"But I like Shifa very much, ask to her for one more time. Maybe she will understand" Nida said and Rani made a sad face.

"Baji she is saying that you will be very strict mother-in-law and she wants best for her Shifa, she don't want to do any compromise with her life.

"Rani you tell me have I did anything with you? I never said anything to you why would I do anything wrong with my own daughter-in-law?" Nida asked with anger and Rani shook her head.

"Never baji, you never behave wrong with us, I also tried to convene her but she don't want to do. Then what we can do?" Nida huffed and Rani made a sad face.

"I don't think Shifa will be Ready for marriage. She wants to study further and Maryam bhabhi will never go against her wish."

"We will never stop her education even after marriage, but if Maryam don't want then we are not dying to marry Faraz with Shifa." Nida said with anger.

"What can we do baji" Rani said with sad face

"Mere bete ke liye ladkiyon ki kami thodi hai. Acchi se acchi ladki tayyar ho jayegi uske liye." Nida said with anger and Rani nodded

(There isn't any shortage of girls for my son. He deserves best)

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FARAZ POV:

"Ammi breakfast" I said while watching my mobile and coming downstairs.

"Faraz we have to talk to you" Ammi said and I nodded while doing in the kitchen where Ammi was making breakfast for me with the help of maid.

"Ammi not milk, give me tea or coffee" I don't like milk but Ammi always give me that.

"Faraz" Ammi glared me while giving me glass and I shook my head

"Allah Hafiz, you don't want your son to do breakfast" saying that I scoot to the door.

"But Faraz..."

"Ammi in evening, I'm getting late" I said loudly going towards the bike, inserting the key in key hole I mounted on bike but before starting bike and saw the DP of Her

"Miss you are become bold day by day" I mumbled while putting my mobile back in my pocket she changed her DP.

"You will be able to show your happiness to everyone, soon" I mumbled after watching her in my imagination.

That was the fourth time when she changed the DP. First she said everything happens for a reason that was the reply of my DP and THEN On rose day she uploaded a bunch of red roses on her DP then, she wished me on my Birthday.

But crazy girl just uploaded a pic of cake, at least she could say a little happy birthday. No worries soon we will talk to each other face to face instead of these DPs. I don't know how will we talk to each other, she never look at me but last time she was watching me.

"Faraz you have to reach hospital today." my mind scolded me and I started the bike with a smile.

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"Assalamualaikum" I entered in the home with a loud salam and claimed the stairs. Before I entered in my room a voice attracted my attention

"Faraz"

"Ji abbu ji" I said and moved towards their room. I found Ammi and Abbu ji sitting with serious expressions on their faces

(yeah)

"Faraz I have to talk to you, I said in morning too" I listened Ammi's voice and nodded.

"Ammi just five minutes, I'm coming after freshen up" Ammi nodded and I stepped in my room.

After spending almost ten minutes I again went to my parents room, they were talking to each other in serious mood i dont know what they were discussing about but there were something important I guessed

"Sit" Abbu ji said and I sat in front of him.

"Look, how is she?" Ammi passed a photo to me and I didn't glanced at that

"Theek hai, magar kyu?" I asked with confusion but my face was still holding a smile.

(It's fine, but why are you asking)

''Faraz we have choose this girl for you. Do you have any problem?" Ammi took away the floor which was beneath me.

" But Ammi.... " I looked at the photo she wasn't Shifa. That was some other girl. What's the matter? Why they rejected Shifa? My mind was asking numerous questions

"If it's fine then should we talk further about the match?" Ammi gave me a heart attack and I looked at abbu ji.

"But Ammi you were talking about... About Shifa" I said in meek tone while passing the photo to her

"Beta her family is not ready for your proposal, they don't have to marry her daughter with you" Ammi blasted another bomb on my head and moreover heart. That words made my heart stop to beat.

"Faraz give answer if you are agree only then we will talk further fir this proposal. They are very reputed people" This time Abbu ji asked bug I was thinking about Shifa.

Only and only Shifa..

"Abbu ji" I utter in almost no voice but he nodded.

"Just for once go to..." I said meekly and looked at Ammi

"I mean Ammi you didn't talk to Maryam aunty" I said with lower gaze. In my whole life that was the first time when I was putting my opinion in front of Abbu ji and Ammi before that I never did so, because my parents always give me whatever I wanted and needed.

"Faraz we send Musa to talk to Maryam and her husband, first he said that they will tell there answer after discussing with Maryam, but then Maryam rejected your proposal for Shifa, now what we can do?" Ammi told me and I was in disbelief, how everything could hang in a single minute?

I was sitting silently in front of my parents with lower gaze.

"Ammi try to talk to..." I didn't complete my sentence, I was showing my that side for the first time

"Faraz you tell me how will you feel if you ask for something to someone and they people refuse to give that thing on your face. Will You feel insulted or not? There is same thing here. Shifa's parents will reject your proposal and we will feel insulted in front of them"

"Ammi I'm very tired, I'm going to my room" I said in full respectful manner and made myself stand

"Faraz" Abbu ji call me and I lifted my gaze

"Beta we choose Shifa for you. But her parents don't like this match then we can't do anything. But you tell me if you like any other girl!" Abbu ji asked and I stopped myself to reveal shifa's name.

"Abbu ji I'm tired shall we discuss it later?"

"Go and take rest, but tell us after thinking about this girl" Ammi said and I scoot to my room.

Drawing out my mobile I did call to Musa Mama.

"Haan bhai bhanje aaj Mama ki yaad kese aa gai?" Musa Mama asked when he received the call.

(My dear nephew how do you remember your uncle today?)

"Musa Mama I have to talk to you"

"Kya ho gya beta, sab kheriyat to hai? Bolo kya baat hai main sun raha hu" He asked with tensed tone.

(What happened? Is everything fine? What do you wanna say, I'm listening)

"Not on call mama I'm coming, you come out on the corner of your street" saying that I scoot towards my bike after placing my mobile in pocket

"Faraz where...."

"Abbu ji my friend is coming" I lied for first time in front of my Abbu ji.

IN good ten minutes I reached to the place, and mama already waiting for me, "come'' I said and he mounted on bike next to me.

"Mama have you talk to Shifa's parents?" I asked when I stopped the bike in front of a food corner. We both took steps in the shop, Mamu ordered two mango shakes and we took a seat.

"Yes I did"

"Mama why they people are refusing for this proposal?" I asked in tensed way.

"Faraz do you...." Musa Mama asked and his forehead was full of creases

"Yes mama I do like her, why her parents are refusing?" I stated the truth Mama was like a friend for me so I hadn't had to hide my feeling from him.

"Faraz do Shifa aslo?" Mama asked and I think for a moment

Reputation and dignity is most precious jewel for every girl and I couldn't reveal her name in front of anyone......

She wasn't my dignity but her dignity was respectable for me.

"Faraz say without hesitation, do Shifa also like you? Are you both..." I didn't let him complete his sentence

"Musa Mama I never talk to Shifa, neither she did. But I like her, I don't know she has same feelings or not but I like her." I said and Mama nodded.

"Beta her parents are not agree, your mami talked to them but they refused by saying that Shifa don't want to do Marriage now, she wants to study further." Mama informed me and I was shocked on that.

How could Shifa do so? At least she should think once.

"Musa Mama she should continue her studies even after marriage, or her parents only do engagement and we'll wait for marriage untill she complete her graduation." I said and mama let a cold sigh out.

"Faraz I also said the same, even Rani suggested the same to her bhai and bhabhi but Shifa is concerned about her education...." Musa mama made my heart clenched with his words.

"Beta yeh shadi wagerah ke masle bohot mushkil se handle hote hain... Shifa mujhe bhi bohot pasand thi tumhare liye, Nida baji ne to baad me kaha tha main to Pehle se hi soch raha tha tum dono ke bare me, lekin kya kar sakte hain?" Musa Mamu said in defeated tone and I nodded without uttering any word.

(Beta it's not easy to handle these matters, I also liked shifa for you from a long time, even I was thinking about you two before your mother's suggestions but I'm so helpless)

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"Allah why this is happening with me?" I questioned to Allah and I was feeling as if there was something between all these things.

I thought Shifa also like me, but she don't have any feeling for me... Or she was hiding her feelings. I picked up my mobile phone to call her but from which right should I call her? I even don't know will she like to talk to me or not? She stay with her mother whenever she go anywhere, what if her father or mother saw her talking to me...

I know very well how he is, if everyone think wrong about us...

Abbu ji and Ammi will face problems and insult..

I throw the mobile with rage.

"Why Shifa?" I mumbled while sitting on floor holding my head with both hands.

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I changed my dp as usually to give her message

"Faraz have you think about Aamna?"

"Who Aamna?" I asked in confusion

"Faraz the girl whose photo I showed to you." Aami asked when we were on dinner table.

"Ammi I already said I don't want to do Marriage for two years, I'm going back to Mumbai I'll try to find out a job there. I dint like the environment of Delhi" I said because I don't want to live in this city. That too near her home, her home was on some distance away, I don't want to saw her in front of me without any of my right on her.

"Are you out of your mind? Why you have to go to Mumbai again? How will you manage there?" Ammi asked with angry voice and I took the bite without thinking anything

In Mumbai we had only a flat but in Delhi we have a big lavishly furnished house. But I wanted to go away with this luxurious home just because of that refusal.

"Faraz it's been two months when I asked for Aamna, her parents are also waiting for our answer, for how long I said to them that we will tell them after sometime." Abbu ji asked with angry tone. 

"Abbu ji please I don't want to do Marriage now!" that was the most polite words what I could use

"If not Aamna then some other girl, but we have to see you settle down" Ammi and Abbu ji both said in unison and I was helpless. I was trying to ignore this topic since last two months but there wasn't any benefits

"Do what you want" saying that I scoot to my room.

"Faraz are talking about Aamna or we search any other girl?" Ammi asked and I stopped in the middle of stairs

"I'll marry to any girl which you will select" saying that I scoot inside my room.

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I don't know why my parents were in so much hurry? The very next day when I entered in home I was surprised. Some guests were sitting in our living room.

"Faraz come back here after freshen up" Abbu ji said and I nodded when I went to the living room sometime I got to know that they were family members of that girl and they came to meet me.

"Faraz we fixed your engagement on this weekend" Abbu ji snatched the rug from under my feet.

"Excuse me" I excuse from those people and scoot to my room

"Shifa why you didn't trust me? Why do you think I'll stop you to study further?" I mumbled while locking the door from inside.

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Engagement day arrived and I was feeling like death day for me. In our family bride and groom don't meet on engagement day, they both sit separately but Aamna's family insist that we both should saw each other once. I didn't glanced at her, she was not Shifa and I dont want anyone else except her.

Everyone was feeding me sweets and that was tasting bitter for me.

"Faraz smile" Ifra said and I looked at her but I didn't smile "Faraz" she glared me and I smile. They all were commanding me like a lifeless and emotionless dummy and I was doing so.

Shifa didn't trust me! That hurtled my heart.

I turned my head to saw the one who was sitting beside me and looked away I wanted Shifa beside me, but she didn't trust me.

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That's been four months of my engagement and I still wants only and only Shifa. I did many prayers that she do trust on me but....

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THIRD PERSON'S POV :

''Hello"

"Shifa are you crying?"

“Hel.. Hello" Shifa was crying with hiccups.

"Affi he didn't cheat..."

"He didn't cheat affo, but we all were cheaded by phuppo... Affo" Shifa said with hiccups and Afifa was confused on what she was trying to say.

"Shifa stop sobbing and tell me clearly. What the matter?!" Afifa asked and Shifa informed everything about the game play of Rani.

"Shifa I'll come to your home tomorrow, at this time I can't talk to you, there are some guests in my home" Afifa hanged up the call after saying that and Shifa was in the pool of tears.

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"Assalamualaikum Aunty" Afifa entered in the home of Shifa.

"Waalaikumas salam dear, its good that you, beta try to talk to Shifa, she is studying so much that her health is suffering, she is studying for whole night" Maryam said and Afifa nodded.

Shifa hide her tears in front of everyone so well that no one could imagine that she was broken from inside. She was become like a coconut, solid from outside but hollow from inside.

"Yeah aunty, you don't worry i'll scold her" Saying that Afifa moved towards shifa's room

"Allah pak please give me Faraz, please.. Allah Ta'ala please write him in my destiny please, I don't want anyone else please give him to me. Allah Ta'ala bless me with Faraz, he wasn't cheating on me but Rani phuppo did everything... Allah Ta'ala only you know what I'm facing in my life... Allah Pak I know I'm becoming selfish, yes I'm becoming selfish I'm only thinking about me, I'm not thinking about that girl who have engaged with Faraz but Allah Ta'ala I'm not asking something bad for that girl. Allah pak please you give that girl ten times better than Faraz but give Faraz to me. Don't gave that girl any problem but please Allah pak please give me Faraz I don't want anyone's bad but I only want Faraz I don't want anyone except him. Allah pak maybe that girl deserves a better one, I'm not asking anything bad for her but please you blessed me with Faraz "

"Shifaaaa" A loud knock break the chain between the almighty and his Devotee and Shifa raised her head from prostration (Sajdah).

She break the chain of prayer, wiped her tears and open the door....

Without thinking once that she was in front of Allah she should not pay attention to anyone else who was on the door.

Afifa entered the room and both friends hugged each other, Shifa informed her everything to Affi. But Musa hide the reality from Faraz and his family because he didn't want to insult his wife in front of everyone. So he didn't informed the reality. And Faraz was thinking that Shifa didn't trust him.

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HOW IS THIS?

Hum labon se keh na paaye,

Unse haal-e-dil kabhi

Aur woh samjhe nahin

Ye khamoshi kya cheez hai

{These lines goes well on the situation of Faraz and Shifa 😢😔😔😔}

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Author's request 🙏:

Remember me in your prayers on shab-e-barat...

"May Allah bless us with the best in every aspect and make us good human, and grant us hight respect in both the worlds. May Allah make the upcoming year easy for us."

Ameen

_Naaz Jamal