My Mom's Personal Diary
My Mom's Personal Diary

Author: writerbyheart01

Published: 08/10/24

In a world where society claims to forgive, the reality often paints a different picture. We are told to rise like a phoenix from the ashes of our past, to embrace each bad chapter as a lesson. Yet, how often are people truly allowed to leave their past behind? Mistakes cling like roots to a tree—an inseparable part of who we are, shaping how we are judged and remembered. This thought-provoking book delves into the harsh truth: can anyone truly escape their past, or will society always hold it against them? Through powerful storytelling, it explores the journey of self-redemption and the constant battle for acceptance. Will the characters rise above the judgment, or will their past define them forever?

Chapters


THIRD PERSON'S POV :

"Shifa is this your library?" Afifa asked and Shifa was shocked

"Leave my hand" Shifa said and pulled her hand from Rohail grip.

"Shifa I never expected this from you" Afifa said and glared her, and in the very next moment she moved from there

"Affi at least you w...." Shifa was saying something but Afifa was out from the range of shifa's sight

"Shifa I'm talking to you please listened to me" Rohail said and Shifa glared him.

"Go to hell" Shifa said to him and ran behind Afifa.

"Affi listen" Shifa held her hand from behind

"Don't talk to me, never ever., we are not friends anymore" Afifa said angrily and jerked shifa's hand.

"Affo why are you..."

"Don't talk to me Shifa I'll never talk to you" Afifa said and Shifa nodded.

"Fine I will never talk to you again. I always think you as a friend but you are not the one" Shifa said in slow voice and took steps to other side.

"Where are you going drama queen? Shifa I want to beat you till you become faint" Afifa shouted on Shifa and she was surprised

"Why?" Shifa asked with expressionless face

"Are You the same Shifa who always tell me that you don't like to talk to boys" Afifa said angrily and Shifa just nodded

"You were not ready to be friend with boys even with Yaseen and here madam has a boyfriend. Shifa if you and that Rohail are..."

"Stop it Affi, are you mad? Rohail.. My boyfriend?? Are you seriously mad? Nothing like that" Shifa yelled on Afifa

"Aren't you girlfriend and boyfriend?" Afifa asked snd Shifa shook her head

"He pulled me inside the room and ... And" Shifa had tears in her eyes

"And... And what!!?? Shifa did he... I mean did he something wrong with you?" Afifa asked angrily and Shifa quickly shook her head

"He said that he love me" Shifa said with tear filled eyes

"Ohh my Allah.... Shifaaaa" Afifa said and sighed

"Just this?" Afifa asked and Shifa was angry

"Just!!! Is this a matter of just!!" Shifa asked angrily while emphasis on juzt

"Yes it's just... I'm asking if he just asked or he did something else too, you can tell me" Afifa asked mischievously after giving a small kiss on shifa's left cheek and Shifa glared her.

" affo I'll kill you as well as that ROHAIL too?" Shifa was shocked but managed to say that while glaring her friend

"Did you said I love you too to him in reply?" Afifa Asked in whispered but full of mischievousness

"Afifa are you mad? How can you think so?" Shifa said in angry way

"Shifaaaa.... He is Rohail. The ROHAIL AZAM of our school, girls use to roam behind him crazily and he proposed you" Afifa said excitedly and Shifa glared her.

'' I'm Not interested in any THE ROHAIL AZAM and I am not a girl who roam around boys neither I want any boy to glance at me in that way." Shifa said angrily and Afifa rolled her eyes.

"Seriously Shifa you are an exceptional case on this earth!!" Afifa said and jeked her neck "I mean Rohailllll... Hayyy.." She added dramatically while putting her hand in her heart and Got a tight slap on her head from Shifa.

"I'll say this to your mummy and papa, then they will tell you about your Rohailllll.." Shifa said angrily and said Rohail in copying Afifa's way, and Afifa rubbed her head.

"Shifa say seriously.. What's your matter why you stay away from boys?" Afifa asked seriously and Shifa shook her head.

"Nothing, just I don't want to waste my time with boys" Shifa said and took steps toward the water tank to drink water

"Shifa its not normal!! You don't behave like a teenager, it seems you are a late twenties woman who knows how to deal with everything. You are so much serious dude!!" Afifa said in very slow voice and Shifa was confused

"What is the problem if I don't want to waste my time in these useless things? I don't want to be engaged in these type of things." Shifa asked after drinking water and wiping her hands and mouth with hankie

"But Shifa ROHAIL is a good guy, I agree that he was a cheapster, but now he is changed, I don't what is your problem?" Afifa said and Shifa glared her.

"I don't care if he is changed or is he still cheapster. I am not interested in any boy" Shifa stated and took steps towards her classroom, and Afifa followed her.

"Okayy... Shifa madam...the great" Afifa said in mocking way

"Okay tell me will you come to yaseen's home for his sister's birthday party?" Afifa asked to her and she shook her head.

"Why?" Afifa glared Shifa

"ohhh I know.... Stay away from boys" Afifa said in taunting way and Shifa sighed

"Affi I don't know why I think you as my best friend, in actually you are not the one, you always make my fun, and you never understand what is my opinion." Shifa expressed her appointment and Afifa rolled her eyes dramatically

"So Miss Shifa make me understand, explain what you think, but you never share the reason behind the boycott of boys"

"Affi we are in only ninth class, we should..." Afifa didn't let her complete

"Should focus on studies and our career" Afifa completed shifa's sentence because she already knew what Shifa was going to say.

"Tomorrow we have to go somewhere that's why I'll not come to Yaseen's place for birthday party" Shifa said and Afifa pass an artificial smile.

"If you were not have to go there, then would you come to Yaseen's place?" Afifa asked and Shifa think for few minutes then shook her head

"I knew it, by the way tomorrow we also have to go somewhere, but I'll go to Yaseen's place, and mummy papa will go to the other place" Afifa said and Shifa nodded.

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Maryam was busy in kitchen, and Shifa was standing with her mother.

"Mummy you use to do all the domestic chores at ownself, don't you feel tired.?" Shifa asked and Maryam smiled then nodded.

"I feel tired but when you all like what I make for you then my tiredness went Away" Maryam said and Shifa hugged her.

"I love you so much mummy" Shifa said and Maryam smiled then kissed her cheek.

"My doll" Maryam hugged her back and Shifa smiled.

"Shifa go and sit with your brothers, I'm cooking, your papa must be coming in some time" Breaking the hug Maryam said and Shifa nodded

"Hamdan bhai what are you doing? Why are you always busy in books?" Bilal complain and Hamdan lifted his head from book, Shifa took seat beside Hamdan

"Your exams are near you too study hard." Hamdan scolded Bilal and he ignored. "And what about you madam? How is your studies going on?" punching her cheek Hamdan asked and she huffed

"Bhai everything is fine but these are my cheeks not any rubberband which you can pull anytime" Shifa said and Hamdan busted in guffaw.

"Hamdan Bhai"

"Hmm"

"I don't wanna go to phuppo's home. Please do something" Shifa pleased and Bilal came closer to her.

"Aapi you are idiot. Who can refuse to go to the family gatherings?" Bilal asked making an unpleasant face and Hamdan closed his books.

"Shifa, you are becoming so much reserved, how you will face the world? We have to attend any seminars and group discussions in college if you will continue your this attitude how will you manage in college?" Hamdan asked and Shifa nodded.

"You are coming with us tomorrow, got it?" Hamdan ordered and Shifa nodded with down face.

"Shaffo... Be happy yaar, why are you so much negative? Why you don't like to go anywhere" Hamdan said and Bilal placed his arm on her shoulder.

"Afifa aapi is correct, Hamdan bhai she said that Bilal your Shifa aapi is an alien on earth who came here by mistake" Bilal said while laughing madly and Shifa looked at her both brothers

"Bilal what will we do if that alliens come back to take their daughter back?" Hamdan said with chuckles and Maryam entered in the room with her husband who just come back from office...

"What happened? Why my kids are laughing?" Maryam asked happily.

"Papa.. We are saying what if one day a flying saucer come in our home and said that give our daughter back, she is an alien" Hamdan and Bilal said in funny way but Shifa silently looked at her mother.

"No alien is coming to our home for taking her." Her father said and placed some shopping bags on centre table.

"She is my daughter." Maryam said after placing her hand on shifa's shoulder

"What is this?" Hamdan asked while going towards the shopping bags

"This one is for you and this is for Bilal" Passing two bags to both of them his father said and they became happy because that were the things that they both wanted.

"Maryam" Passing a small bag to her he said and she grabbed the bag without uttering any word.

"Mummy what is this?" Shifa said and peeped inside the bag, and drew out the a small box. Maryam silently open the box which was a beautiful wrist watch.

"Mumma It's beautiful" Shifa mumbled, but down heartedly because everyone got gifts from his father excited herself.

"You take this, I usually don't wear watches" Maryam said to Shifa and she shook her head. Papa bring it for you, you keep this, I already have that watches which mama bring for me from Dubai." Shifa said and took steps out from the room But stopped in between by..

"Shifa.."

''Ji" She turned to saw her father.

(yes)

"Take this and go to market with Maryam, buy what ever you want" Her father said while passing some money to her but she shook her head

"Thank you so much but don't need anything" She said and his father made an unpleasant face.

"what ever you are giving me is more than enough" Mumbling the same she left the room.

"Aap Shifa ke liye kuch bhi kyu nahi laye?" Maryam asked in slow voice

(why you don't bring anything for Shifa)

"Main pese de to rha tha use, jo chahiye tumhare sath ja kar le aaye"  Maryam nodded as she know there will not be any benefits of arguing with him. She left the room

(I was giving her money, she may go with you and buy what she wants)

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SHIFA's POV :

“Shifa... Beta are you slept?" I heard Mummy's small voice after a soft knock. That was almost mid night I made myself stand to open the door but stopped myself. I didn't want to talk to anyone so I again lay down on bed and try to sleep but sleep was not consuming me.

"Shifa" again a whispering call then I heard the footsteps going back from my room.

I closed my eyes to sleep but suddenly the same scene was started flashing in front of my closed eyes.

'I love you Shifa, I changed myself just because of you'

'I love you Shifa, this is my Last day in the school but I don't want to leave the school without expressing my feelings.'

Rohail's words were ringing in my ears and his face was flashing in my eyes. I was surprised my his words that he changed himself for me, that's impossible for me to believe that, no one can change himself for anyone.

I was feeling angry on Rohail as well as Afifa, how can Afifa say something like that?

Though its true no other girl would refuse for Rohail, the handsome, intelligent guy, who belongs to a very rich family, but....

I don't want to even glance at any boy in that way, 

I had to proof myself

I don't need any man, to live my life, I'll become a self dependent person and I'll bear all my expenses on my own bases. I'll never think about any guy

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Those were the pledges which Shifa took at the age of fifteen, when she was only fifteen. The age in which girls dream for handsome boys, and use to live in the world of fantasy....

But soon Shifa's pledges were going to its end because she was going to lose her heart with someone's single gaze.

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_Naaz Jamal