SHIFA'S POV :

Bilal was in school, Hamdan bhai was in is college and we three were in home... That was off of papa's office.... I was in mummy papa's bedroom, laying on bed placing my head in mummy's lap, papa was sitting besides mumma... He was watching boring business news and I was remembering the Incidents of my life..

"Mumma I wanna go to nani's home.... I am missing Razi mama, and Nana abbu" I said in almost no voice

"Papa shall I go?" I asked and he turned his head towards me and then looked at mummy.

''Tum bhi chali jao" papa said to mummy and she smiled but then she caressed my head.

(you also go)

"Aaj aap ghar main hain, hum kal chale jayenge... Theek Hai na Shifa?" I nodded on mummy's statement and closed my eyes after glancing at papa

(Today is your off, you are in home.. So we will go tomorrow... Alright Shifa?)

"Shifa"

"Ji papa" I open my eyes and looked at him.

"Make a cup of tea for me." I nodded while sitting up on the bed.

"I'll make tea for you" Mummy said and papa shook his head

"Shifa will make it... Go Shifa make tea for both of us" Papa said and made my way to kitchen.

Once mummy told me that papa said he like the tea which I makes but he never told me the same. He don't talk to me, I don't know what is the reason behind that, I didn't got anything from mummy's Diary which give me hint about papa's behaviour towards me.. He always love Hamdan bhai and Bilal but not me.

But whatever... Then I was use to of that...

I pour tea in two cups and made my way towards the room.

"I Know that Rani did wrong bu.... " papa stopped when I entered in the room.

"Mummy what should I do wear?" I asked downheartedly and papa lifted his gaze towards me.

"Wear that pink frock suit" Mumma replied and I nodded.

"Don't you have any other good clothes?" Papa asked and I looked at mummy then slowly shook my head looking at papa.

"Maryam take her to market and buy her some good clothes, she will need in Marriage too... And buy for yourself too otherwise you will remember to do shopping at the end moment" In his same signature tone papa ordered mummy and she nodded with a smile.

"Papa I don't want any new clothes, I'm fine with what I have" I state and his brows become furrowed...

Ofcourse he was still the rude and rough man who is don't talk enough.

"Beta If papa is saying then what's the problem?" mumma asked and I smiled sadly.

"I don't want anything... Just it" I said and sat beside mummy.

"Maryam take her tomorrow with you and do shopping for her as well as yourself too" Papa ordered and mummy nodded.. He didn't left a single room to refuse.

"okay" Mummy assured and papa picked the cup of tea and I was examining his expressions, he smiled after sipping the tea and I also smiled a little.

"How is the tea?" I asked and papa looked at me, he increased the volume of TV then just said "Fine" in reply.

"My doll" Mummy kissed my cheek and I again lay down placing my head in mummy's lap.

Mummy and papa were busy in talking to each other and I was trying not to think about Faraz.

"Mummy"

"hmm"

"I don't wanna go! Shall I stay in Nani Ammi's home when you people go to engagement?" I asked meekly and mummy looked at papa with questioning eyes.

"Papa please I don't want to go there" I said and papa nodded.

"Fine, I'll call Razi to pick you from here and we will pick you while coming back from the function" Papa said

"Papa you will come back late so I will stay there with Nani Ammi and Nana Abbu" I demanded, I knew that what would be the answer but still I tried my luck

"No need to stay at night, I said that we'll pick you while returning it means we'll pick you... Its final" Papa said and I nodded then out my leg to went to my room.

"Suniye..."

"Hmm"

"Allow her to stay in Abbu's home... She feels happy with Razi's kids" I listened Mummy's request while stepping towards the door.

"Maryam don't spoil my mode, you know very well I hate this topic but you always bring out the same" papa almost yelled on mummy and I smiled sadly.

"I hate my father.." I mumbled while stepping in my room.

No.. I'm not saying that about papa but my biological Father... I don't hate papa, he is not bad but he don't love me.

I closed the door and sat down on bed... Before taking my mobile in my hand and saw Faraz's DP, that was showing his handsome face, he was with his colleagues and looking happy.

"That's good... You are happy and I am dying from inside." I mumbled and placed back the mobile then started focusing on my studies, due to Faraz I wasn't focusing on my studies but then I decided to stop myself to think about him and think about my career.

That night Musa uncle call to inform Papa about Ramisha aapi..

Ramisha aapi is Rani puppo's daughter and thankfully she is not her mother, but she don't talk to me as I'm not interested in doing so. She is a nice and kind hearted person like her father. Some people came to see her for her alliance and everything went well. Her engagement was after three day and mummy papa was planning about the gifts and other things which they had to give her as Papa is only Mama (maternal uncle) of Ramisha Aapi.

But I don't wanna go to her engagement because I know Faraz must be there... After all Ramisha aapi is his cousin also. I don't want to see him, it's difficult for me to forget him so it's better to avoid him.

But all the circumstances were against me...

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The engagement day arrived and mummy was getting ready to go as so bhai, papa and Bilal

"Aapi you are idiot! Why you are not coming with us? There will be tasty food and your will miss that" Bilal said while setting his hair which was an impossible task as his hair were so silky

"I'll say to Razi mama to bring tasty food for me too and we all will do party" I replied happily...

This time my happiness was half true because I really wanted to move on, what's the matter of thinking about Faraz when he was engaged

"Indeed you will enjoy more than us with Razi Mama" Bhai said and I smiled.

"Bhai I remember very well, earlier you went to Nana Abbu's home happily but what happened to you later? Why you stopped going there?" Bilal asked to bhai and he stay silent. When Hamdan bhai was around 12 he stopped going there frequently as like before. Before that we three siblings use to go to Nani Ammi's home....

Maybe he understood the meaning of step relationships and felt hesitation to go there.

"Now I become a big boy, not like you" Bhai said with a smile and I also smile. At the same time Mummy entered in the home and I turned to saw her.

"Mumma I'm ready, have papa called Razi mama to pick me?" I asked and mummy nodded.

"Shifa Razi was in way to pick your mami from her home and there is no one to pick you at this time so..."

"Hamdan bhai you drop me" I didn't let mummy complete and asked to Hamdan bhai

"Beta we all will be late, you get ready and come with us" Mummy said and my eyes became wide. I couldn't go there.

"Mummy I'll stay in home, you lock the home before going" I said and mummy shook her head.

"No.. I'll not leave in alone in home at night... Go and wear that black dress." mummy said and I smacked my head in my thoughts

"I don't wanna go" I mumbled looking at Mummy and bhai and bhai pulled my cheek

"Go Shaffo and get ready if you will take time then papa will shout on you" I nodded on that and moved to my room and mummy followed me.

Thankfully I didn't took much time to get ready.

"I'm ready" I said after applying kohl in my eyes but mummy ordered me to apply lip gloss And eye liner so I obeyed but half heartedly.

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"Assalamualaikum uncle" We entered in Rani phuppo's home and I greeted Musa uncle.

"Waalaikumas Salam" uncle greeted back hurriedly and "Shifa beta you go to Ramisha and check if she need any help" I nodded

"Hamdan, Bilal behen ki engagement hai, Sara kaam tum bhaiyon ko hi karna hai kabhi mehman ki tarah Beth jao" Uncle said to both and they smiled.

(Hamdan, Bilal it's your sisters engagement, so you have to look after about the arrangements, it shouldn't be like this that you sit like guests)

I entered in Ramisha aapi's room where she was sitting silently busy in her mobile, her lehnga was placed on the corner of bed, bangles and jewellery was placed on the dressing table.

"Aapi Musa uncle send me to help you, do you need any help?" I asked and she lifted her gaze to me and shook her head.

"I don't need any help, you may go or sit here if you want" She said and decided to sit there to avoid meeting with anyone specifically Faraz...

"Ohhooo.. Ramisha... I didn't had idea that papa have done so much good Arrangements for your Engagement" Shariq bhai said while entering in the room and I looked at both the siblings with confusion as I didn't noticed any special arrangements.

"What special?" Ramisha aapi asked to her one year elder brother when he was removing his mobile from charger cord, and he gestured towards me with a sarcastic smirk

"What bhai?'' Ramisha aapi asked after rolling her eyes

"Papa Arranged a clown to entertain kids..." He said about me

"Leave it Shariq bhai" Ramisha aapi said but she was trying to suppress her giggle, that was a fail attempt in the end she also laughed

"But Shifa you should know how to dressed up like a joker" Shariq bhai again siad and I preferred to ignore at the same time Ifra aapi entered in the room with few more girls.

"Shifaaaa.... Where are you girl? Long time no see, even you don't reply properly to my messages" Ifra aapi said happily and I smiled she hugged me and Shariq bhai was still standing there.

"Don't you know Ifra Aapi Where was Shifa busy?" Shariq bhai asked to Ifra aapi and she shook her head looking at me, but my heart skipped a beat

'What does he want to say? Do he know about Faraz?' My heart asked

"She is doing a job.... Job of clown. This job suits her character, you know inborn talent" Shariq bhai said and I was shocked... That wasn't new that he was making my fun but he didn't do that in any family gatherings. Ramisha aapi and few more girls (who were relatives and friends) also giggled on me.

"I'm not a clown, maybe you are that's why you are making my fun" I gathered all my courage and replied angrily.

"Shut up little chicken... Opps.. Not chicken but clown" He said and I felt wetness in my eyes, few girls were laughing on me.... The way of his talking was so funny that anyone could laugh easily.

"Ifra Aapi where is your daughter, send her to Shifa the clown and send every child to her so that mothers can enjoy the function" He mocked and I couldn't control my tears.

"That's why I never like to come here" I said to him while standing up from the bed

"Shifa.. Its okay it's just for fun, it's not insult or for hurting you" Ifra aapi said lovingly and I nodded but I know about the intention of Shariq bhai.

"So who invited you here? It would be good if you won't come.. But if you have arrived then take care of our guests they shouldn't be bore. Otherwise I'll cut off your income" I wiped my tears before stepping towards the door of the room.

"Shariq stop it you make her cry" I listened Ifra Aapi's voice while stepping out from the room, but some girls were laughing madly I turned my head to glanced at the door of room and when I turned to front my heart stopped to beat...

"I'm sorry"

"What happened? Are you okay?"

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I don't know what to say about this part because I personally know there is nothing in this part...

But next part is containing Faraz and Shifa's scene...

😁😁😁😁

_Naaz Jamal