My Mom's Personal Diary
My Mom's Personal Diary

Author: writerbyheart01

Published: 08/10/24

In a world where society claims to forgive, the reality often paints a different picture. We are told to rise like a phoenix from the ashes of our past, to embrace each bad chapter as a lesson. Yet, how often are people truly allowed to leave their past behind? Mistakes cling like roots to a treeโ€”an inseparable part of who we are, shaping how we are judged and remembered. This thought-provoking book delves into the harsh truth: can anyone truly escape their past, or will society always hold it against them? Through powerful storytelling, it explores the journey of self-redemption and the constant battle for acceptance. Will the characters rise above the judgment, or will their past define them forever?

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"Anisa she is our same daughter whose I treated like a princess, my heart was crying after witnessing her with Anwar, how he was talking to her! He is the same Maryam who never listened our scolding but Anwar was commanding her and she was obeying him like a maid.... This girl ruined her life... I ruined her life... Why I got agree to do her marriage with that Aatish and then why I did her marriage with Anwar?" That was a helpless father who was regretting for her daughter and her life.

"Don't blame yourself, it wasn't your fault to marry her with Aatish, Maryam was blind for Aatish she wouldn't do Marriage with anyone else, you just saved our reputation and if its about Anwar... Then sooner or later we had to marry her off again, and no one wanted to do Marriage with her. No one was agreed to accept Shifa but Anwar did, everything will be fine. But talk to her for once" Anisa requested and Sabir shook his head.

"I can't witnessed her in problems, it's better that she is thinking that I'm disappointed and angry with her. At least she won't try to talk to me again." Sabir said and Anisa cried silently for her daughter.

On the other hand Maryam was crying lying on her bed and didn't realised when sleep consumed her. But her sleep got distracted when a small hand again and again touched on her belly. She opened her eyes and found Shifa laying beside her. Razi made Shifa lay down beside Maryam when she slept in her grandfather's lap.

"Mumma's little doll" kissing Shifa's hands Maryam said and embraced her daughter protectively. But soon she realised that she had to get ready to go back. In sometime she got ready and changed shifa's clothes. At the same time Door bell rang and Maryam got up from bed as she knew he must be Anwar.

"Mummyyyyy" Hamdan entered on the room and Maryam smiled.

"Enjoyed or not?" Maryam asked and Hamdan nodded happily, where is Maham khala? I have bring chocolates for her" Hamdan said and Maryam lead him way to Maham.

"Maryam aren't you ready yet? I have told you to be ready!" Anwar said and Maryam Nodded.

"I'm ready, just going to take my purse from the room" saying that Maryam gave Shifa to her mother and scoot to her room.

"Chaliye" Maryam said after hanging up the bag on her shoulder and Anwar nodded while holding Hamdan's hand.

(Let's go)

Maryam took Shifa from her mother and moved towards her father. "Abbu I'm going" she said Sabir slip his hand in his pocket.

"Hamdan come here beta" Sabir summoned him and Paassed some money as a token of remembrance, but Hamdan shook his head

"Take it Hamdan, he is Nana abbu" Maryam said and Hamdan looked at Anwar, and he nodded slowly. On which Hamdan took that money.

Then Sabir passed a note to Shifa which she grabbed immediately in her small fist.

"Abbu I'm going" Maryam again said the same thing and Sabir pecked shifa's forehead with a small smile.

"Maryam, let's go" Anwar said and Maryam nodded with wetness in her eyes

"Abbu" Maryam whispered but Sabir took steps towards otherside without looking at Maryam. But Maryam catched his wrist and held his hand. He didn't turned to saw Maryam because he had tears in his eyes. Maryam kissed the back of his palm and moved towards the door without looking at anyone but Anwar noticed tears in her eyes.

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That was middle of the night when Anwar woke up he looked at the other side of bed which was empty. Shifa was sleeping in cradle, and Hamdan was beside Anwar. Even after waiting for ten or fifteen minutes Maryam didn't came out from the washroom, so Anwar went down from the bed and checked the washroom which was empty.

He noticed the door of room opened so moved out from the room, and found Maryam sitting in the courtyard gazing sky

"Maryam" She jumped on her place on sudden voice and Anwar went to her.

"J.. Ji" suddenly wiping her tears she looked up

"Are you crying? Again!" Saying that Anwar sat down beside her and she shook her head while sniffing.

"I'm not crying" She said and Anwar nodded.

"Yes I know you are not crying." He said without any expression on his face.

"Abbu didn't talk to me" Maryam said while crying and rested her head on his arm.

"He will forgive you after sometimes" Anwar said and Maryam closed her eyes.

"Don't cry" He whispered with rude tone. But Maryam cried more. "Let's go in the room" Anwar said and Maryam got up and both went to room.

"Maryam don't cry this much, and sleep" Anwar ordered and Maryam lay down after nodding, but she was still crying silently. After coming back from the washroom Anwar sat down on his side of bed but when he saw her crying he moved towards her and lay down beside her.

"Don't cry" He whispered and Maryam turned her side to face him.

"Why with me?" she mumbled and Anwar shrugged.

"Its your parents fault, as well as yours too" Anwar said and Maryam was shocked.

"How?"

"They shouldn't give you this much freedom that you ruin your own life. And if they were trusting you blindly then you shouldn't break their trust." Anwar said and Maryam cried more.

"I'm regretting for my single mistake!" She put her heart in front of him and he nodded.

"I won't say to don't regret, you should regret for your wrong decision. After all you did something wrong with yourself and your family too." Anwar said and Maryam stay silent.

"I'm sorry. I don't know why I become so blind for him that I ignored my father's warnings that he will betray me one day" Maryam shared and Anwar nodded, Maryam was so much busy in talking with him that she didn't realised when she placed her head on his arm and Anwar was placing another arm around her waist.

"That wasn't your fault but your age, its difficult to control your heart in teenage, only difficult not impossible. As I have said before.... You chose an easy way and that easy way lead to the difficult destination" Anwar said and Maryam felt guilty.

"I don't know what should I do now!" She again shared her feelings and Anwar raised his brow

"You are pretty late dear to think anything, you already messed up with everything.... In such a small age you're my second wife. Even yesterday I was thinking that have I did correct by marrying you or not?" Anwar said with his same rude tone and Maryam was shocked.

"Why were you thinking like that?" Maryam asked in small voice.

"I don't know? But I was thinking that you deserve better than me and my family." Anwar said and Maryam was witnessing a new Anwar who was sharing his views with her.

"I don't know I deserves better than you and your family or not! But I... I really statred admiring you. You talk so wisely." Maryam said and Anwar couldn't stop himself, and he kissed her forehead. Maryam was shocked she felt a wave of different sensation on her whole frame. She was looking at Anwar with wide eyes.

"What happened?" He asked and she was still not blinking in disbelieve, but suddenly noticed about the position of her, how close she was laying to him. She creeped backward but stopped when Anwar held her more tightly and pulled her.

"I'm your husband, so be use to of this." He said and Maryam felt a jolt in her heart. Anwar didn't said anything further, but closed his eyes and soon he was gulped by the slumber but Maryam was clulessly blinking her eyes.

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MARYAM'S POV :

(Flashback)

After Four Month....

I was sleeping, when my slumber got disturbed with the crying voice of my daughter, who was laying beside me. I opened my eyes and pulled her towards myself to feed her but she was burning with fever.

"My baby.... What happened to her" I sat down with a jolt and looked at her she was looking red. I tried to hushed her but she was crying constantly.

"Hmm.. Maryam... Hush her" He said with frustration while turning his side and I tried to make Shifa hush but she was not stopping crying.

"Shifaaaa... My baby..." I out my left leg from the bed to went to courtyard because Shifa was crying loudly, and discribing his sleep but I was stop by his voice

"Maryam why she is crying so much she don't cry usually'' his voice was sleepy and eyes half shuttled..

"She has fever!" I said and moved towards the door to went out from the room so that his slumber won't get disturbed.

"Have you gave any medicine to her or not?" He asked after opening his eyes and I shook my head in reply

"Give her medicine for fever" He said and I looked at him with surprising expressions how could I give any medicine to a small child without doctor's consultation

"I don't have any medicine" I said the truth but he sighed

"Why you don't have medicines? You should keep some medicines for emergency" He scolded me and got up from the bed. stepping towards the cupboard he drew out a small bottle of medicine.

"Give this to her" He ordered and I just held the bottle but didn't said anything.

"What happened now?" He asked when I didn't moved from my place for some time, I was just patting shifa's back.

"Without consulting a doctor...." I didn't complete and he moved towards the bed after closing the cupboard.

"It's two of night... No doctor will be available right now, and you can't leave her in fever. We use to give the same to Hamdan" Sitting on the bed he said the same and I sat down beside him, patting the back of Shifa.

"Won't it show any side effects. Right?" I asked in slow voice and he shook his head. "Anything can happen to children anytime, so we should be prepared for emergency treatment. Doctor recommended this medicine for Hamdan" I was silent after that.

"Don't give extra dose, just 1.25 ml" He said and I nodded without looking at him. And Soon he was slept.

After giving medicine, Shifa's fever become low, but when I made her lay down in cradle or bed she started crying so I spent my whole night while sitting on the bed, holding her protectively closer to me chest. I didn't realised when I slept but I woke up when Hamdan shook my shoulder, he had to go washroom and I nodded after making Shifa lay down in cradle, but she started crying. Instead of seeing my own daughter I took Hamdan to washroom and Shifa was keep crying

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"Get ready" He ordered me when I was carrying Shifa in one arm and, serving breakfast to him and Amma.

"For what?" Amma asked with anger and I stay silent because she asked the same question which I wanted to asked.

"Shifa has fever since last night, I'll take then to the doctor" He informed Amma and I nodded

"Ab apna kaam kaaj chhod kar yahi kaam reh gaya hai tumhara?" Amma bust on him and glared me.

(Now you don't have anything to do except this)

"Maryam go and get ready... And don't take much time. I have to go to office too" He ordered me in the same ruthless menner, and I nodded he started feeding Hamdan.

"Haan... Bhai ab to yahi reh gya hai.. Maa bol rahi hai bolti rahe.. Hame kya? Hum to wahi karenge jo Hume karna hai?" Amma shouted on him and I stopped between the way of room.

(Ohh.. Yeah... Now only this thing is left... Just ignore what your mother is saying, just do what you wanna do)

"Amma she is a small b...." He was saying something but stopped when saw me standing there

"What are you doing here? Go and get ready, I don't have whole, I have other works too" He scolded me and I nodded suddenly but felt scared of his scolding. I moved to the room and he was saying something to Amma but I didn't got what he said.

"Dulhan.." i listened a call when I was changing shifa's clothes and scoot towards the dining area, carrying Shifa.

"Ji amma" I asked and she asked me to make tea, though tea was placed in front of her but since she was angry with his son so she had full right to drew out her frustration on me by making me work more and more.

"Okay" I said and moved towards the kitchen after glancing at him and was also looking at me, he also knew what his amma was doing but he didn't said anything as usually

I was feeling strong aversion with tea and khichdi, I was faded up of making those two things everyday. Placing the tea on the table in front of Amma I scoot to the room. I was feeling aversion with aroma of Food. After some five minutes he came inside the room when I was taking my purse on shoulder and picking up Shifa from bed.

"Ready?" He asked and I nodded without uttering a single word, but when he was going towards the door I decided to break the silence

"Suniye" He turned to saw me and hummed

(listen)

"I.. I think.... I'm pregnant" I said in slow voice and his face still keeping carrying the same expressionless expression. But he didn't moved further.

"Just thinking or sure?" he asked with furrowed brows and I was silent for some one minute.

"Mayhap... Sure" I said and he didn't said anything but nodded with same expressionless face.

"Come, I'm waiting for you outside, and come fast Hamdan is getting late" He said and I moved out of the room following him.

After dropping Hamdan to bus stop, he took me to hospital, first he we went to a child specialist doctor, then he took me to a lady doctor just to confirm about my doubt.....

And even after that conformation his face was expressionless. He didn't even smiled. In five months of marriage I never saw him with a small smile on his face.

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So...

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_Naaz Jamal