ANZALA'S POV

"Your rosy cheeks are more beautiful than this rose" sitting on chair next to Muskan's I said while passing the rose to her.

"Anzala I... I don't want it" She told me with a hesitant voice.

"Muskan you can take it from me... I am your friend" I said but she shook her head

"We are friends it doesn't mean that we sideline all the rules and regulations" Muskan said and I was confused

"How I'm sidelining the rules by Giving a rose to my friend? '' I asked Muskan and she let a cold sign out from her parted lips.

"Giving a rose to your friend is not wrong for you but accepting a red rose from a boy is wrong for me... And Anzala, are you noticing yourself?" I saw a different Muskan that day, she was talking very confidently like she was scolding me and I was silently listening that

" What do I have to notice about myself?" I ask with confusion while placing the rose on Muskan's book

" Anzala, your flirting is increasing day by day... Earlier you were only a friend of mine who used to praise me, I never felt odd with that but now I'm not feeling comfortable in your presence. Please don't take me wrong but your flirting is becoming disgusting with every passing day." Muskan said while picking up the rose from her book and placed it on my side.

" Muskan you never say anything like this about Arham, he also gives you chocolates and.... " She didn't let me complete

" Arham is not a flirting King like you, he treats me just like a friend." I felt hurt with her statement

"Anzala you weren't like this... I have known you for three years... In fact I never did friendship with any boy other than you and Arham because at that time I felt you and Arham both were genuine guys. Arham is still the same but you're anymore" Muskan again breaks my heart.

"Muskan I'm not a cheapster like other guys" I state the truth.

"Yes, you are not a cheapster Anzala but you are on the way to becoming a cheapster. You have started flirting and praising all the girls to pass your time." Muskan showed me the reality and I just nodded silently.

"Now don't spoil your mood and tell me when Maizah will come back?" Muskan asked after a few minutes of silence

"I don't know when she will come. It's been eight days but she is not coming back" I state with frustration. She wasn't coming back from her maternal grandparents home, it seems she didn't want to come back...

But what I have to do.. She may go to hell from my side

"Today Arham is also absent, do you know why?" Muskan asked and I felt frustrated

"Yaar am I everyone's PA? How do I know why Arham is absent and when will Maizah come back? They people are not even talking to me" I shouted at Muskan with anger and threw the rose on the floor while picking my bag.

"Maizah and Arham both go to hell from my side, what I have to do either Maizah come back from kanpur or not." Mumbling the same I went towards the parking area of the college.

"Where are you going Anzala, next lecture is...." Mansha was talking but I ignored and mounted my bike. I didn't know where I was going but I just roamed on roads and streets for almost one hour, then reached home.

"Anzala aaj itni Jaldi wapas aa gaye!" Ammi exclaimed when saw me entering in the home

(Anzala today you have come back so soon)

"Ammi koi kaam to apni marzi se karne dijiye... Ya ab kahi aane Jane ka feesla bhi aap hi karengi? Kyon Ki hamari zindagi ke sare fesle lena ka haq to Sirf aap sab logo ko hi hai na... Jab dil chaha, jo chaha feesla suna diya!" I shouted from the top of my lungs before stepping towards my room.

(Ammi at least let me do these small things with my own will. Or now will you take the decisions regarding my departure and arrival every day? Of Course... why not? after all you all have complete rights to take every decision of our life! who cares about our wishes? you all just know how to announce your decision)

"Sab ko wahi karna hai jo unke dil me ho, main kya chahta hu kisi ko koi fark nahi padta" Mumbling the same I climbed stairs

( who cares about me, everyone do whatever they want to do)

"Anzala Pagal ho gaye ho kya? Ye koi tarika hai baat karne ka?" I listened to Ammi's angry voice and I turned to see her.

( Are you becoming mad? is this a manner to talk?)

"Yes I have become mad.. And you all are responsible for this so Don't teach me the manners of talking!" Saying that I made my way upstairs, and bang the door of my room as loud as I could, even a glass of the door cracked due to that jolt but I didn't care.

Throwing my bag to the other side I sat down on the floor, resting my back on the bed. I was feeling frustrated as well as angry. After some ten minutes Chhoti Ammi knocked on my door. I didn't give her permission but still she entered.

"Anzala" I completely ignored

"Gussa ho?" she asked and sat down on bed placing her hand on my shoulder

(Are you angry?)

"Chhoti Ammi please leave me alone" I said while removing her hand from my shoulder but she didn't leave me alone.

"Anzala... What happened, tell me."

"Nothing" I said rudely

"Anzala look here" chhoti Ammi said strictly and I did so.

"You are tense because of this marriage. Right? Maizah and you both don't want this marriage. right?" chhoti Ammi asked and I took a few moments to understand what she was saying

'Really am I tense due to this marriage?' I asked to myself but actually I was angry and frustrated without any reason or maybe there was a reason which was unknown to me

''I don't know Chhoti Ammi" I said in a defeated tone.

"Don't hide anything, if you don't want this marriage then tell me, Maizah also told me that she is not interested in this marriage as so you, I'll talk to everyone about both of you. You don't have any future with each other." Chhoti Ammi said and I felt a different emotion that was something like fear, or maybe insecurity or anything else, but I felt like someone important was going away from me.

I don't know what that feeling was, I never experienced that type of fear in my heart.

"Take your time and think wisely." Chhoti Ammi said while caressing my head and I nodded

"Come for lunch" I shook my head but "Anzala... Don't do this.. Come for lunch and talk to your Ammi, you know she is silently crying from the time when you shouted at her." I felt bad for that and nodded while making myself stand

"Ammiiiiii" I went to kitchen and found her setting with Rumi aapi.

"Ammmiiiiiiiii, sorry naaa" I held my ears in front of her, I couldn't tolerate tears in her eyes, no matter how much she become angry on me but mother is always important as well as precious.

"Rumi tell him that I'm not talking to him" Ammi said in anger after throwing a glare at me.

"Rumi aapi say to your Ammi that his only son is apologising in front of her, so forgive him" I said to Rumi aapi and mouthed sorry to my dear Ammi but...

Handling Mrs. Momina Rashid Rizwa wasn't a piece of cake.

"Rumi tells him to have lunch without any drama.. I won't talk to him" Ammi said to Rumi aapi, who was placing plates on the table.

"Rumi aapi say to Ammi that her son was angr....'' my sentence was cut off in between by Rumi aapi.

"What are you both doing? Rumi say this to him, Rumi aapi say this to Ammi... Am I your postman who passes the messages from one end to another..." Rumi aapi asked with frustration and placed the spoon on the table with a thud.

"Maizah hoti na abhi tak meri help karke Ammi ko mana bhi leti, aap kesi behen ho meri help hi nahi kar rahi" I said in complaining way, that was true whenever any elder become angry with us, Maizah literally butter them until their anger flew away.

(If Maizah would be here she must do something to help me in convincing Ammi but you're not helping me.)

"Haan to apni Maizah ko wapas bula lo na, wese bhi uske Jane ke baad se tum aadhe Pagal ho gaye ho, tumhe ladne ke liye koi na koi to chahiye, ab Maizah nahi hai to tum ne dusro se ladna shuru kar diya." Rumi aapi burst on me but her one sentence hit my heart Unknowingly

(Yeah... summon your Maizah back... You're becoming half mad from the time she went to kanpur. Her absence is making you mad and you're drawing your frustration on us.)

'Apni Maizah ko wapas bula lo na'

(summon your Maizah back)

'Apni Maizah..'

(Your Maizah)

'My Maizah... Is she mine?' my heart asked but I felt scared with the answer rising inside me so I preferred to ignore that question.

"Bhabhi forgive him, he won't do this again" Chhoti Ammi said in my intercesstion and finally after a short discussion and my apology, the matter was solved

"Come on Anzala sit for lunch, I have cooked your favourite dish today" chhoti Ammi said with a smile and I gulped with fear.

"Don't tell me you have cook bhindi {okra)" I asked with fearfully beating heart

"No... I have cooked paneer, but If you wanna eat Bhindi (okra) then I'll cook that tomorrow" my eyes become wide on the love of my dear Chhoti Ammi and Rumi aapi glared at me.

=================

After dinner I was sitting in my room trying to study but couldn't, I tried to understand the reason for my anger and frustration but couldn't.

"Anzu.." I smiled and looked at the door but closed my eyes after closing my books. Maizah wasn't there, only her voice was roaming in my head.

"Why isn't she coming back?" I mumbled with frustration and lay down on bed. As soon as I closed my eyes her face came back into my vision. I suddenly open my eyes and picked my mobile up, it was showing 7 messages from Mansha.

I don't know why I was thinking about Maizah, so in order to ignore her thoughts I started replying to Mansha's text. Soon she made a video call and we started talking, but I wasn't feeling the need to talk to her.

"Mansha, can we talk later?" I asked and she shook her head.

"Why? Don't you like to talk to me?" she asked and I shook my head.

"I'm feeling... Something.. Something odd and uneasy" I don't know why I said the same to her

"Ohh.. This is a sign of love.. Look your here there maybe there is a girl who is making her place in your heart" Mansha said making me shock

"Mansha I'll talk to you in college" saying that I disconnected the call and closed my eyes, Mazi's smiling face again came in front of my eyes. I was ignoring her since the night I pecked her forehead, but only I knew what I was feeling. I was dying to caress her cheeks again in the same way, I wanted to watch her face without blinking. I wanted to hug her. But all these feelings were highly awkward, in order to ignore these feelings I started ignoring Maizah and when I felt difficulty in ignoring her I started focusing on other girls but I can't forget Maizah.

since childhood we were like shadows of each other. Her absence was making me angry, Rumi aapi was correct that I need Maizah to argue with. After whole eight days and nights I realised that....

I was missing My chudail... I was missing her badly...

"Chudail, when will you come back?" I mumbled while doing a video call which she didn't attend, which was enough to make me worry for her. She never ignores anyone's call.

I kept calling her but she didn't receive the call and suddenly her face appeared on my mobile screen. I felt relaxed that she was fine but felt angry that why she wasn't attending my call. "I was calling you for hours! Where were you? Do you have any idea how tense I was... I was wondering if you are fine or not... Mazi, you can't be responsible in any way, y..." I bursted on her but she didn't let me complete

" Will you stop overreacting? Tell me why have you call me?" she asked with rudeness which hurt me to the deepest core of my heart.

'Here I'm missing her and she is fine' I felt angry at her but what was the reason for doing my call? I couldn't say that I was missing her.

"Umm... I... I call.. Hmm... Ohh yeah... Miss.. Hitler... I mean Jasmine Sharma... What I'm saying..." I stammered

'What the hell are you talking about, Anzala!' I scolded myself and try to gain my confidence back and decided to reply her in in the same rude tone

" Miss Jasmine and Hitler Sharma both were asking about you, I have to tell you just this... So I called you nothing else... Why would I call you other than this reason? Do I have this much useless time to call you without any reason... Even I'm feeling so happy and good since the day you have gone from here!'' I said everything in a single breath but I smacked my forehead in my thoughts.

'Anzala, why are you giving an explanation for your call? Why are you saying that you are happy in her absence but in reality you are dying to watch her' my little poor heart scolded me again

"Anzala... If you are liking Maizah's absence then leave her here permanently, I am enjoying her presence very much" I was shocked to hear that masculine voice from the other side.

"Who is he?" I asked to Maizah

"Dayim bha..." Maizah was saying but

"Not Dayim Bhai.. But Dayim sir... Now cut the call and start you to study" Dayim bhai instructed her to not call him bhai which I didn't like.

Suddenly Dayim bhai's face appeared on my mobile screen.

"Hey Anzala, Maizah is busy studying, will you talk to her later? Bye take care, and say my salam to Dada abbu" and in no time the call ended.

"Who is he to stop me from talking to Maizah!!" I mumbled with frustration and anger.

"And why is she sitting with Dayim bhai at this time of night?" I was feeling angry about Maizah but I couldn't do anything. I was going to call her again but

"Anzala" a call made me startled

"Coming" I Scott to Dada abbu's room from where the voice came.

"Yeah Dada Abbu!" I asked while going inside the room where all the elders were sitting with dada abbu

"Sit" I nodded and did so

"It's only one and a half months in Rumi's marriage" Abbu said and I nodded.

"I know" I said as I really knew, there wasn't anything new in that

"It means that there is only one and a half month left in the announcement of your and Maizah's engagement in front of everyone." My heart stopped beating for a moment.

'I love Muskan.. How can I marry Maizah?' I said to myself

"Abbu.. Dada abbu.... " my sentence was cut off by Chhoti Ammi

"Abbu ji, I'm not agree for this marriage" Chhoti Ammi said and I nodded

"Gul what are you saying?" Abbu asked in disbelief

"Bhai sahab, its not about our decision its about Maizah and Anzala's whole life.

"Gul this decision is final.. there isn't any need of discussion about this topic. Anzala and Maizah's Marriage is final." Dada abbu announced his decision without even listening anything from me and Chhoti Ammi.

"Anzala you can go, I just called you to inform you so that you will make yourself prepared for this announcement" Dada abbu ordered me.

I was in great problem, I silently stepped out from the room while running my fingers in my hair

"Abbu ji on which bases you are saying to do this marriage? If by any chance they both have committed any mistake even then we can't play with their whole lives, Anzala is not appropriate for my Maizah" I listened Chhoti Ammi's voice which stopped me to go back to my room

"What are the flaws in Anzala?" that was my abbu who questioned with disappointment

"Neither Anzala is responsible, nor he does any work... How will he handle his responsibilities?" I felt bad listening to that reason of rejection.

"Am I irresponsible?" I asked myself and got the answer as 'yes.'

"After his graduation he will join family business, and if it comes to responsibility then he will become responsible after marriage" I was listening what my father was saying in my defence

"But still... Anzala is not happy with this marriage and I don't want Maizah to live a life in which her husband won't love her. How her life will be if Anzala won't give her attention? We all are noticing Anzala's cold behaviour towards Maizah, is this possible to live in this type of relationship?" Chhoti Ammi present her point and I was shocked that she noticed my behaviour towards Mazi

" I also agree with Gul in this matter if Anzala doesn't want to accept Maizah, as his wife then I also don't want to make my daughter suffer for the rest of her life.

"Gul, Maizah won't get anyone better than Anzala... Don't think so much" Ammi said to chhoti Ammi and I was just listening everything

"Bhabhi how can you be so confident about this? Who said that Maizah can't get anyone better than Anzala?" Chhoti Ammi said in arrogant tone

"Do you know anyone better than Anzala Who is suitable for Maizah?" Dada abbu asked and answer snatch away the land which was Beneath my feet a moment ago

"Dayim."

"What are you saying Gul. Dayim!" Chhote babu exclaimed and I was shocked.

"Dayim is better than Anzala in every possible aspect, he is mature, responsible and handling business on his own, other than that Bhai said me that he like Maizah for Dayim." I was just listening to everything and trying to interpret what actually I was feeling, but all my emotions and feelings were at rest.

"Gul why you didn't tell me if your brother asked about Maizah's hand for Dayim" Chhote abbu asked and I was just listening everything

"I haven't replied to bhai about this matter, I wanted to talk to Anzala and Maizah both, regarding their decision. But Anzala and Maizah both are not agree.... Maizah is my daughter. I know she will accept Anzala or Dayim anyone on our decision but if Anzala is not ready to accept Maizah as his wife then how will my daughter live a life in which her husband won't give her importance." I listened to that voice and stepped towards my room.

'Maizah and my marriage!'

'Is this acceptable?'

'But Maizah... And Dayim bhai.. No way.. Dayim bhai is her cousin...'

'Anzala you are also her cousin' My heart said in a duh tone.

'But Dayim bhai is only her cousin I'm her husband' My wise soul said loudly but I was confused. First of all I stop the debate of my heart and my soul and think with the help of my mind

'I love Muskan' I said to myself

'You are doing wrong Anzala... You love Maizah' my heart said but I was ignoring that voice.

'Maizah is very important for you, you become mad without her only in these eight days... How will you live without her for your whole life?' I listened to my inner voice and fisted my hair while closing my eyes.

"I'm becoming mad... I don't know what to do!" Mumbling the same I closed my eyes.

After debating with myself for almost two hours I made a decision that wasn't easy for me, but still I took the biggest decision of my life.

"I want Mazi.. She is my Mazi.. She is my chudail, only mine" opening my eyes I mumbled and dialed Maizah's number.

"Hello" She received the call in her sleepy voice and I smiled.

"Meri Yaad nahi aa rahi tujhe?" I asked with a small smile.

(Aren't you missing me?)

"Kya musibat hai Anzala... Sone de na yaar" I listened his mumbling and she cut the call but I smiled and closed my eyes to sleep, but that time I was feeling happy and satisfied.

(What's wrong with you Anzala... Lemme sleep dude)

================

Hiii...

I'm back with a new and big chapter

😎😎😎

Finally...

Anzala realised his feelings!!

What do you think will happen now?

😁 😁 😁

_Naaz Jamal